C - Bad, Bad Love
I entered my classroom, a usual frown plastered on my face. I dumped my bag beside my chair and approached my only friend and best friend, Natalie Pierce. She's a sweet gal, has brown shiny hair, and green warm eyes. I became the exact opposite of her since my damn of a boyfriend broke up with me. I don't really know and understand how Natalie copes with my attitude and behavior but I love her nonetheless.
I sat on the vacant seat beside her. She's sleeping and snoring lightly. I smiled despite my mood. She lightens up my day easily; sometimes I couldn't figure out why I'm still under the cloud of gloom.
Her petite body stirred and she stretched her arms out. She saw me and her whole face lighted up. The room was dark but I still saw the delight in her eyes.
"Good morning, sweet Natalie." I greeted.
"Good morning, Mommy." She
leaned and gave me a hug and a kiss on my cheek. She leaned back into her seat and relaxed. "What's up?" she said and yawned.
"Nothing, I guess. He's still stuck." I replied. She took my hand and rubbed it. She gave me her famous everything's-going-to-be-alright smile. I stared at my feet. Yes, no matter how cold I make myself against other people, I'll still have a soft side. ‘Cause I was once also a girl who loved. I loved a guy who's a dumbass like any other men out there. I loved too much and unfortunately, ended up like this. Pathetically miserable and heart broken. I don't want to do the same mistake again.
"It's because you're not letting go yet. You have to let go, Czerina. He's your past not your present." Natalie said out of nowhere. I smiled at what she said. Not because she's right but because I remembered the movie Kung Fu Panda. Po said that the present is called present because it's a gift. Well in my case, the present is a living nightmare.
"Consider my words, Czerina. I've been there before." I looked up and I saw her looking into my eyes. Looking into me intently. Like she wants to get inside me and take out my soul. And she has been through my situation before. In fact, her boyfriend now ex-boyfriend, broke up with her one month before my break up. What are the odds, huh?
"I know Natalie. And I've had enough. I do want to let go but I don't know how!" I said, tired of all the emotion.
"Ok. In order to move on, focus on what you have now. Focus on what you love doing best. Focus on your studies. Focus on yourself." She stared into my eyes as she buried her words into my mind. My heart's taking a wee little time to consider. I bobbed my head up and down and actually considered her words. I smiled. There were tears in her eyes. I guess she remembered her last break up. I brushed them away and she thanked me. We laughed a little, thinking of our little drama. Suddenly, the room grew darker. We both turned our heads to the window and saw the rain.
We jumped from our seats and dashed out of the room. We ran down the stairs that was just near our classroom and went to the little gate beside it. We had a clear view on the rain and we immediately felt the cold wind on our faces. We love the rain. It's dark but it gives us hope that there'll be light again. ‘Cause if there is darkness, there will be light. We sat on the floor and looked outside. We felt peaceful. We felt free.
