J - The Truth Shall Set You Free
My stomach is grumbling and it's making an awful noise. Fortunately, no one heard it. I watched Mia eat her favorite brownies and asked myself why I haven't asked her if I could get one. My stomach's been rumbling all morning and it's a miracle that nobody has reacted or noticed. Mia ate her brownies with such delight, making me jealous. I wanted to get one bar but I'm stuck to my seat. I don't why. Maybe it's because of the weight of my problem. I haven't asked Mia if she fancies me. It's either I haven't got the time or I'm too afraid to know the truth.
After what happened with Catherine, the truth had scarred my life. Not to be a bit over dramatic but as far as I know, truth hurt me. And so other people. Catherine told me the truth and look where it got me. Sad and quite bitter but still holding on. I know that I'm strong. I just can't find the strength.
I sighed and stood. I walked over to Mia and asked if I could have one brownie. She smiled and I took two. Her eyes widened in shock and she yelled to give her back the other brownie. I laughed, as well as the others, and I ran out. Mia didn't even run after me. I ate the brownies outside just to be safe. I ate them slowly. There are probably two grade levels having their recess. I watched them eat and mingle. I went to the canteen and drank a glass of water. At last, my stomach's satisfied. I glanced at a row full of delicious food and my stomach rumbled again. When will I ever be full? I fortunately found my wallet inside my pocket. I took a few bucks and bought a burger with drinks. I sat by a small table and ate. Students laughed and talked around me. I savored the tastiness of the burger. Yes, I just said tastiness. Because it really is good. Well, what do you know? It could be the most perfect burger and you're missing it. And I'm eating it. I flashed a victorious grin.
"Come on, Czerina. Make your move."
"What if I don't want to? What if this isn't the right time?"
"Damn, girl. It's now or never!"
I heard feet shuffling behind me. I just ate my burger and ignored what I just heard. I couldn't shake Czerina's name though because of what she did this morning. I heard footsteps and I focused more on my food. She could be making a move towards Zayn. I looked around but I cannot find Zayn anywhere. I looked up from my burger and Czerina's shy face came into focus.
"Hello." She said with a shy smile. It was more like a half smile. I took a sip of my drink before I replied.
"Czerina, what brings you here to my table?" I asked her. She shuffled her feet and stared them. Her voice was soft when she told me her reason.
"I just wanted to know why I'm the only person who knows about C."
I stared at her face and started to think. Why is she the only who knows? Why didn't I tell the other teachers? Why did I open myself to her?
"I actually don't know." I answered, my face also full of confusion. What made me blurt my lovelife to a student?
She looked at me with surprise. She chuckled. Is she laughing at me? Why is she laughing at me?
"Well, I consider myself lucky. I got a teacher to tell me his lovelife!" she said, sort of talking to herself.
"Are you talking to yourself?" I can't stop from asking her. She giggled.
"I suppose I am, sir." She turned and walked away. Her friend laughed with her when she probably relayed what happened. I finished my burger and threw whatever is supposed to be thrown. I walked back to the faculty and found Mia sitting with a satisfied face. Probably because of her delicious brownies. I decided that it's the best time to ask her the question that I've been dying to ask her. I took a chair and sat beside her. Her eyes were closed.
"Mia, can I ask you something?"
"Hmm?" she hummed. She slowly opened her eyes. Her anger is gone and she is now smiling at me.
"Are the rumors true?" I asked her.
"What rumors?" she stalled.
"Mia, I know that you're not dumb."
"Well, you are." She replied. She stared intensely at me. My head cocked to my left and I raised my eyebrows in question.
"And cute. You know that they're not true. You have to trust me, Jeff. We're just friends. And friends trust each other." She said and patted my head. She grabbed her books and walked out.
"Don't you believe her, Jeffrey. She pretty fancies you." Mrs. Alpers said. She's one of my co-teachers and also one of my friends. I just looked at her and thought that there is a possibility that Mia is lying. Right now, the truth doesn't seem to look so bad. I want this whole situation over with. She's my friend but I don't want her to get hurt. I also don't want to get myself hurt. She really is likeable but I just can't think of her that way. She really is just my friend. I went back to my desk and wrote a letter.
Mia,
The truth shall set you free. That's all I can say. I couldn't say much from my past experiences but as much as the truth hurts, it's the truth. I can either lead to good or unfortunate things. You told me that I should trust you. I do. I trust you to say the truth. Friends don't keep secrets, right? If what you said is really true, it's ok. If it's not, it's also ok. ‘Cause I'm your friend. You helped me a lot through my stay and I owe you a lot. I can't promise that the feeling may be mutual but I do like you. You're really likeable actually. That's why you're my best friend. I immediately felt comfortable around you. Please be happy. Life is meant to be lived with happiness.
Yours truly, Jeffrey
I tucked the letter inside my pocket. I just have to find the right time to give it to her. I checked my schedule. I have a class with . . . grade 8. My advisery class. I took my books and jogged to my class. I'm late after all.
