Only When You Need Me (BoyxBoy)

IV: "There I said it"

Luca's POV

7:01a.m. Monday

I woke up to a loud alarm ringing in my ear.

I pressed snooze.

As I got out of my bed, I wasn't sure if I was ready to start the day. All I knew I wanted to see him. I wanted to see Sebastian. I wanted to tell him that I loved him. I know we just started dating . but something about him was different. I can see us being together for a very long time. Or am I just talking crazy?

As I took off my clothes and stepped in the shower, I remembered the dream I had last night. I had a dream that me and Sebastian got married at this beautiful wedding. It was amazing.

I was obsessed.

After my shower, I put on my usually grunge styled clothes. And before I went downstairs, I check my phone for any messages from Sebastian. I was disappointed. Maybe he's still getting ready.

It's 7:33a.m.

I rushed out the front door before I miss my first period class. I always miss breakfast. I'm never really hungry like I use to be, and I begin to notice my dramatic weight lost.

Walking to my car I saw Sebastian walking to his car too. Maybe I should walk over to say "Hi" and get a kiss.

I stood in front of him, smiling.

Sebastian: Hey you!

Lucas: Sup

I grabbed him by the waist , going in for a kiss.

Sebastian: Someone seems happy to see me

He smirked.

I blushed.

Lucas: Yes very happy.

I giggled.

Sebastian: Want to catch a ride with me to school? Then maybe after school we can hang out at my house.

I knew I couldn't drive with him to school. I couldn't let people see us together. Still I wasn't ready. I wasn't prepared.

Lucas: I would love to drive with you to school , but I think Im going to drive myself. Maybe another time.

Sebastian: Aww Okay. Next time.

We gave each other another kiss. Then I went to go get in my car and drove off to school.

2:30p.m.

School was almost over and I felt horrible. All day I've been ignoring Sebastian so no one would notice that we're together. I want to keep or relationship a secret. I need to tell him that. But I'm afraid that he might take it the wrong way. He might think I'm ashamed, but I'm not. I'm just not ready for the world to know. I hope this doesn't ruin our relationship. I texted him saying "I'm sorry" . He has yet to reply back. He must be angry.

School was over, and I caught him the parking lot. I knew I just had to go up to him so say sorry face to face.

So I walked over to him.

Lucas: Hey Sebastian. I'm sorry. It's just-

Sebastian interrupted.

Sebastian: I get it. You don't want to be seen with me.

Lucas: Yes!

I thought twice at what I said then I realized I said the wrong thing.

Lucas: I MEAN NOO ! NOOO THAT'S NOT IT!