Thursday
6:40p.m.
Meanwhile, back to Sebastian's Suicidal Scene
Sebastian POV
Betty: SEBASTIAN STOP ! PUT THE GUN DOWN NOW!
She screamed standing in front of my bedroom door.
Sebastian: STAY AWAY! I HAVE TO DO IT MOM! I have no other choice.. I don't want to live anymore.
I cried as I held the gun to my head.
Betty: Pleaassee! Oh dear lord please Sebastian do not do this! You're my only son.. my sweet little boy. I need you. Don't kill yourself.
Steadily, she tries to get closer to me.
Seeing the fear in her eyes I didn't want to cause her great pain if I killed myself right in front of her. So I slowly put the gun on the ground, and my mother ran over to hug me.
Betty: Thank you thank you thank you. I don't want to ever have to lose you. You all I got.
She sobbed.
What she said was meaningful, and I kind of felt important. It's good to know that someone actually cares.
Friday
10:02A.M.
My father came back this morning to get his stuff, he was moving out again. He said he couldn't handle my depressive behavior. During his little visit here, my mother yelled at him for leaving his gun a place where I could find it, knowing my condition. As a result, they both constantly argued back and forth downstairs, while I still laid in bed feeling numb.
Afterwards, my father left. He never really cared about me.
1:23P.M.
Later on that day, the house stood quiet. Occasionally, my mother would check up on me, to make sure I'm still alive. I hate that she worried about me so much.
All I wanted to do was lay in bed and hope that sooner or later I'll just die. Then I would be happy.
Suddenly, I heard a knock at the door and a familiar voice coming from behind.
Stranger: Hello Sebastian. Are you in there?
It appear the tone of his voice was very deep like an old man voice but raspy.
Stranger: It's me,Sebastian, your therapist. Remember me? Can I come in.
I stayed quiet. I didn't want to talk, especially to him.
His name is Doctor Terry but I called him "Doc" for short, I mean who wouldn't. I have to admit, he did help with my problems. During my first session with him when I was 12, he diagnosed me with Bipolar. He said I had it so severally that I had to take medicine for it. Well now that I've been off of my medicine for a while, I didn't think I need it. But I guess I was wrong.
He decides to walk in.
Doc: Hey buddy. Is everything alright?
He sat in the chair next to my bed.
I still stayed quiet.
He let out a sigh.
Doc: Sebastian, I know you're at the state where you've lost all hope and you think you have no reason to live anymore. We all feel that way sometimes. It's call "Life" and we have to fight through it.
I tear fell down my face.
Sebastian: ... But you don't understand. This time isn't like last time .. when I saw you. This time is different..
YOU ARE READING
Only When You Need Me (BoyxBoy)
Teen Fiction"As I got out of my bed, I wasn't sure if I was ready to start the day. All I knew I wanted to see him. I wanted to see Sebastian. I wanted to tell him that I loved him. I know we just started dating ,but something about him was different. I can see...
