Save Me | Phil Lester

Nine

I'm so sorry this chapter took so long to write, but here it is, enjoy! x

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"Phil, please-"

"-Why don't you go to the police?!"

I sigh, "I don't know to be honest.
But it's okay, he could have done so much worse. I told you that his threats stopped after Lucy was born. And everything was perfectly fine up until a few months ago."

He walks over to me, looking into my eyes. "He was cheating on you. It wasn't 'fine.'"

"And when everything came tumbling down you came into my life and made everything okay again." I say and gently kiss him. "Lucy and I have put the past behind us. It doesn't bother us anymore."

"Doesn't it bother you that Jonathan is out there telling someone he loves them, and then going behind their back and saying the same thing to someone else?"

I shrug, "It's sad. I wish I could somehow warn every woman out there that he's a cheater, but I can't do that. So, unless I see him and another woman out in public, there's nothing I can do about it."

"If I ever see him out in public," Phil stifles a laugh, "Well, you'd have to hold me back because I'd fuck him up."

Memories of Jonathan, Lucy and I in the hospital when Lucy was first born floods into my mind, and I grab Phil's arms, "Phil, I know he was threatening at first, but he changed. He helped me for the first 10 years of Lucy's life."

"Then he changed again, into a cheating little-"

"-Please," I say, "I'm sorry, I know how upset you are because of what he did, but he helped me raise Lucy, and for that I'll be forever grateful, because I knew I wouldn't have been able to do it myself. He's not a bad guy, Phil, really."

"He abused you."

I look down and flinch at a memory of him hitting a beer bottle over my head, then trying to apologise and hug me immediately after what he did.

"See, you're thinking about something that happened right now, aren't you?" He whispers.

I shake my head, even though he and I both know I was lying.

"Let's just talk about something else." He says, putting an arm around me.

"I should probably go and take a shower," I mumble, standing up from the chair in the lounge and heading towards the door.

"I'll be here all day if you want to come over."

I nod and head out the door, "Thanks."

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Phil, Lucy and I are sitting around the table eating lasagna. We're talking about what Lucy learned at school today, and what Phil and I did whilst she was there. We're just like a family, and for the first time in months, I'm happy.

My phone rings right in the middle of Lucy's story about what she did in her maths class.

It's Jonathan.

"Jonathan is calling me," I sigh. "I'll just ignore it."

We remain silent until my phone rings again.