#DontDoIt

Chapter Ten

Micheal Hawkins

I hadn't talked to Shana for the longest, and to see her out of no where made me feel some type of way. She was looking gorgeous as ever, and how good them booty shorts she had on fit her so right. I couldn't help but stare at her in daze. Cause as usual she was using her body to her advantage. She knew I would be staring, so she decided to come up and talk to me while I was with my girl. Is it bad to say that I still ain't over her yet?

"Who's your friend Mikey," Shana asks innocently, batting her fake eyelashes at me. Looking fine as hell, so a nigga could feel himself starting to grow. I know I shouldn't be thinking about her now that I'm with Tatiana, but I can't help it.

"My girlfriend Tatiana," I say proudly, hoping that she'll just leave it as that. I'm really trying not to cheat on T, because I do truly love her. Its just that Shana is a huge weakness of mine. Meaning that if she ever got me alone, something might go down.

"Aww, that's cute," she smirks. "Not much to look at though," she adds, and I stand there in a daze. Slyly thinking about all the dirty things I could do to her. Not even realizing that Tatiana was mugging me with her arms crossed. I snap out of the trance Shana had over me, before standing up for my girl.

"Shay, don't talk about my girl like that," I defend, and Tatiana looks off to the side, still looking extremely pissed. "Because she's my baby, and I love her," I say mostly to Tatiana, because I didn't want her to mad at me. No matter how sexy she looked when she wanted to punch me.

"Are you sure you love her? Because last time I checked you were sprung off of me. Probably still sprung," she says wickedly, cause she knew she was right. I miss Shana so much, and I wish she would have agreed to be my girl. But, at the same time, if I was with her, I would have never met Tatiana.

I take a minute and get my thoughts together before answering her question. "Yes, I love Tatiana," I finally decide. Kissing T right after, to show both of them that I'm in this for the long run. I know I have feelings for Shana, and she probably wants me back, but she's just going to have to get over it just like me.

After the kiss, Tatiana still refuses to look at me, and turns her back to me as well. She unwraps my arms, before picking her son up who was holding his prizes, before stepping around me. I stand there stunned, watching Shana smirk with satisfaction out of the corner of my eye. I shake my head at her, before following my baby out to my car. She's probably mad because I was staring at Shana, which was wrong of me. So, I know I gotta make it up to her, cause Ion wanna lose her over a hoe like Shay.

I find Tatiana strapping Xavier up in his car seat that he is getting too big for. Still looking pissed as ever, which made me feel like shit for getting her there. I try to touch her, but she moves away from my hand, before slipping around me to walk around the car. I let out a sigh, as I shut the backdoor, before hopping in the front.

As we're cruising down the street on our way back to the crib, I continue to try and make things right. I glance over to T, to find her getting lost in the music playing on the radio. She was forcing all of us to listen to Trey Songz's new song Everybody Say, and it wasn't as bad as Chris Brown. Still it wouldn't be my first choice to listen to on full blast. Luckily, it wasn't turned up that loud, or I would have jumped out of the car by now. Even though she was in her zone, trying to calm herself down, I wanted her to at least talk to me. Cause she can't give me the cold shoulder forever. At some point she gone break, and we gone have to talk things out.

"Baby, you gone ignore me all night," I ask glumly, and she simply shrugs, silently mouthing the words. "So what? Is that a yes or no," I ask, and she puts her hand up, basically telling me to shut the fuck up. She ain't never did that shit to me before, so she must be really mad. Especially if she had the balls to put me on hush mode. Next thing I know, she's turning up the volume on my stereo, so she didn't have to listen to me no more. I roll my eyes, a little fed up with her attitude, while silently focusing back on the road.

As Tatiana is putting Xavier in the bed, because he has school tomorrow. I wait for her in the bedroom, because she was going to forgive me whether she likes it or not. I hate when she mad at me, cause she gets to this annoying ass distant, anti-social state. So, I waited patiently for her in only my boxers, as I comfortably watched a basketball game I just so happened to come across. Tatiana decided to take a shower in the hallway bathroom, just to give her another excuse not to be around me. Which was fine, cause she was going to have to come to bed some time soon.

As I'm dosing off, trying not to fall asleep, she finally climbs in on her side of the bed. She lays far away from me, and turning her back to me like she did earlier. So, I scoot over to her side, until my bare chest is pressed up against her back. She allows me to wrap my arms around her, as I rest my chin on her shoulder.

"I'm not in the mood Micheal," she says bitterly, but that wasn't gonna stop me from making her smile.

"Baby, can we talk, please," I beg, before I hear her sniffle. "I'm sorry baby, forgive me," I ask, before she lays down on her back and looks up in my eyes as best she could. I stared back, feeling like a complete asshole. I promised TT that I wouldn't hurt her, yet here I am. Feeling like shit, because I'm the one that made her cry. More tears start streaming down her face, as she covers her eyes with her hands.

"Do you still want her," she asks hurt, and lowkey I do, but I want Tatiana more.

"I do, but she's in the past. I'm with you now, and she's just going to have to respect that."

"So, you still do want her," she comes to the conclusion, over looking the second part of my answer.

"Why don't you believe that I love you T," I ask with frustration.

"Because I know that you're just gonna hurt me," she screams. "Nobody loves me, nobody gives a fuck about me. They just use me, hurt me, and I'm tired of it. Sometimes I wonder why I haven't killed myself by now," she cries, causing my heart to break into a million pieces. I bet she didn't have trust issues until she got with Tevin, and because of him, she doesn't trust me either.

"Tatiana," I say while uncovering her eyes, so she has no choice but to look into mine. "I love you, and I'm never gonna hurt you. You can trust me. I promise that Ima be the kind of man you want me to be. Because I can't live without you baby. Your my whole world, and I wanna make you my wife. I want you to have my kids, I wanna have a family with you. You can't kill yourself, cause you gotta be here for your son. He can't live without, and I can't. So, please just forgive me and trust me," I plead, causing her to wrap her arms around my neck and pull me down into a passionate kiss. I rest my hands on her waist as we go at it, hoping that I'm forgiven by now.

"I trust you baby," she whispers against my lips. "Thank you for being the man of my dreams," she adds, which made me smile cockily. I ain't never been called that before, so I nigga couldn't help but smile. She returns it, before biting her lip up at me. I could feel myself getting bigger just at the sight, cause my baby fine as hell, especially when she gets naughty. "I want you to make love to me," she whispers friskly, and I was all for it. I sit up and start reaching for a condom but she stops me. "We won't be needing that tonight," she smirks, causing a nigga to get even more excited. She don't even know it yet, but she bout to be pregnant again...