Lost Boy {Edited Version}

When The End Begin's

I was running as fast as I could to the hospital carrying Bella in my arms. It all happened so fast, I didn't think about it till it happened. One moment we were watching a movie we fell asleep the thing I knew she wouldn't wake up. I took her in my arms and ran.

I ran into the hospital and screamed for help the nurses took her out of my arms and carried her away. I called her dad and Oliver and Stephan. Oliver and Stephan stayed with me and we waited for Bella's dad to arrive.

When he arrived I told him everything that happened and he broke down to his knees in tears. We waited six hours until the doctor came to us.

"Doctor how is she?" I asked.

"Son she's not going to make it." He said, putting his hand on my shoulder.

Bella's dad sat down in his chair starring down at the floor. I couldn't speak I was sad at the world at everything around me. I went to see her and saw all the machines hooked up to her. As I heard the Beeping sound coming from the machine I knew she was still alive.

"Bella." I said, crying trying to hold it in but I couldn't.

"Jasper." She said, looking up at me.

"I'm so sorry." I said.

"Jasper this isn't your fault. I need to tell you something that I have been wanting to tell you." She said.

"What is it Bella?" I said, holding on to her hand.

"What ever happens to me. Please stay strong and remember the times we had the memories we shared. I love you so much Jasper. You are my lost boy Jasper and the reason I call you that is because you run away from reality to know that Neverland is your home where you are free." She said.

"I had the wrong idea then. I will be strong but I can't let you go." I said.

"Your going to have too Jasper. Sometimes you do have to grow up and face reality." She said.

"I will try for you Bella." I said.

"I love you lost boy." She said.

Before I could say it back to her the Beeping stopped and was silent. She was gone.

"Bella no, no, no, no, no. I love you come back Bella. Come back." I said, screaming and crying.

As the nurses pulled me away from her her hand fell not moving a single muscle. I was in the middle of the hallway standing crying all alone. I ran Oliver and Stephan ran after me.

"Jasper wait up." Oliver said, grabbing my arm.

"Just leave me alone Oliver."I said, pushing him back.

"Hey Jasper I'm just trying to help you out here."He said.

"You want to help me?"I asked him.

"Yes Jasper you are my best friend."He said.

"Help me by leaving me the hell alone."I said, turning back around and walking away.

I ran in the rain not stopping for anything. I went to her house and climbed up into the window to her room. All of my clothes were wet and my hair was wet all over my face.

I looked around the room and it took me back to the memories of how much fun we had and then it all just came to me. The pain came along with the tears.

She was such a good person she believed in things that no one else did. She made me happy and now I'm in a place were my pain collided with my memories that once made me happy.

Now they just make me sad. My life is just a big ball full of unhappy shit. Everyone and everything I touch dies or goes away. One day I will be gone too.

*****

I fell down on the floor not bothering to pick myself up. I looked up to the ceiling and saw the stars that I helped Bella put up. I looked at each and everyone of them.

Then I saw on that looked like a star but wasn't any of the stars I put up. There were exactly Twenty stars I had put up not twenty-one. I grabbed Bella's chair from her desk and put my two feet on the seat and stood and reached for the star.

I grabbed the star that was actually a piece of paper folded into a star. I jumped of the chair and sat down on the bed.

I unfolded the piece of paper to see a letter. A letter from Bella.

This is what it said.

Dear: Lost Boy

By the time you read this letter I will be dead. I have gone to Neverland. I never meant to leave you like this I didn't want to leave you like this. As I'm this letter to you I'm crying, because there is a secret I have been keeping from you. This secret is so dark and scary that I can't believe I never told you. I wish I was there to tell you myself, but I'm not.

But before I do I want to tell you a few things. When I first met you I didn't know what to think I called you my lost Boy because of some Childish thing I was thinking in my head, but the truth was I was lost. I didn't know how to tell you I couldn't even tell my father.

You are such a different person for everybody and I loved you for that but deep inside I knew this secret would ruin everything between us. I wrote this letter not only to tell you the way I fell about you, but to tell you this thing that's been hidden for so long.

After you read this letter don't be mad at me. It will ruin everything, so when you find out don't regret the things that happened between us because I love you. I will always love you and I will be waiting here in Neverland for you now not only are you a Lost Boy but I am a Lost Girl and we both were meant for each other. I hope to see you soon Jasper.

This secret is so dark that I can't believe I'm going to tell you it, but I have too. The Box my father gave you I opened it. I know what's inside of it. I don't what it is only because I know it would hurt you. I know the password to it and I hide it in a place you used to go a very special place.

When you open the box don't be mad. I'm sorry Jasper, but I still love you. Never forget Jasper. Never.

Sincerely, Lost Girl

The letter fell out of my hands. Down on top of the heart shaped stain I left on the carpet for Bella. Body was paralyzed. My mind was lost. My feelings were empty. My hands were cold. And I was wondering.

Wondering what to do next?