The Choice

.4

Previously
I broke the kiss and opened the door, pulling his hand and guiding him to my bed....
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He sat on the edge of the bed and pulled me so into his lap. his arms were wrapped around my waist, and mine around his neck. his soft pink lips kind crashed into mine and then began to make their way down to my jawline, then to my neck. what was I doing? I couldn't do this to Alex. my thoughts were interrupted by Joel finding my sweet spot. I let out a small moan. he knew the effect he had on me so he continued. wait. no I couldn't continue this. I pulled away, tripping on his foot and making him fall off the bed.

"Joel I-Im sorry. I can't do this. I just can't" he got on his feet

"Erika don't try to hide your feelings. we both know we feel the same way about each other. and don't say you don't feel anything for me, because what just happened tells me the complete opposite"

"Joel I have a boyfriend. he doesn't deserve this. how will I continue our relationship after this?"

"you're right. he doesn't deserve this. break up with him. that way you won't feel any guilt."

we both knew that that was the best option. we both knew that my feeling for Joel were returning. returning? they had never left actually. I loved him. 

"just think about it." he made his way to the door. as he opened it he turned to me and said "oh and you might want to cover that hickey on your neck. you don't want anyone finding out about us" my eyes widened up as I rushed to the mirror. and as he said, I had a purple love bite on my neck. I was going to kill him. my thoughts were interrupted by my phone ringing. it was a FaceTime call from Alex. Fuck I need to cover my neck up. I rushed to the bathroom and applied concealer and foundation to the purple bruise on my neck. by the time I got back Alex had hung up. I decided to return the call.

Alex: hey babe. how's Miami treating you?

Me: um hey. and oh it's good I guess

Alex: are you okay? you sound different.

I was feeling different. I no longer had the same feeling for him. how was I going to tell him.

Me: Alex we need to talk.

Alex: about...?

Me: about us. our relationship. I think it's better if we're friends you know? I don't know if this long distance relationship will work. I just think it's better for us. I don't know. I'm sorry. I know you don't deserve this. I'm so sorry.

his face showed sadness and anger. I hated hurting him. he was so nice but I couldn't continue our relationship as if nothing had happened between Joel and I. tears were forming in his eyes.

Alex: did you meet someone? is this why you're breaking up with me? or do you not love me anymore? did I do something wrong? if I did please tell me and I'll fix it.

Me: no it's not any of that...I just think it's what's best for us. I'm sorry. I think it's better if I go now. bye and goodnight.

Alex: yea I don't think it will be anymore.  

and with that he hung up. I felt so bad but it was for the best. tears began rolling down my cheeks. I felt like the worst person on earth at the moment. I heard the door opening and saw Johann come in.

"well you look like crap. you oka- is that a hickey on your neck?" fuck. the makeup must of ran off with my tears.

"umm w-what are you talking about?" I said trying to cover my neck.

"don't act stupid. that's a fucken hickey. who the hell have it to you. cause for sure as hell wasn't Alex. was it Joel? I'm going to fucken kill him." Johann was the typical jealous older brother. 

"Johann chill please. no big deal. and no it obviously wasn't Alex. we broke up. well it's more like I broke up with him." I walked to my suitcase to get my pjs.

"was it Joel?"

"maybe" I whispered really fast.

"wait- you broke up with Alex. why?"

"reasons" I said in an annoyed tone.

"whatever. oh by the way. the show is looking for back up dancer to dance in the live shows for the competition. thought maybe you'd want to audition." I have been in ballet and dance class since I was 4. I considered myself a good dancer.

"um okay thanks. when are the auditions?" I think my ankle will be fine by tomorrow I thought to myself

"they start tomorrow so you can go with me when I go to rehearsals" I nodded I agreement. I was a bit hungry so I decided to go to the vending machines in the lobby before going to bed. I grabbed my phone and a $10 bill from my purse. As I was closing the door my phone began to ring. it's was Wendy.

"hey" I said awkwardly. I knew why she was calling. Alex had probably told her that we broke up and wanted to know what she could find out.

"what the hell is wrong with you?! why did you break up with him?!"

"well chisme travels fast doesn't it?" I said in a sassy tone. "I have my reasons okay Wendy. I don't need to give any explanation to any one on why I broke up with my boyfriend okay?" I said in a little too rude tone.

"so you did take my advice after all huh Erika?" just hearing his voice made me get goosebumps. fuck.
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so here's chapter 4. I hope you guys like it. I would appreciate it if you guys left some feedback. I will be introducing Yoyo in the next chapter so stay tuned. don't forget to vote and comment :)