The Choice

.5

Previously
"so you did take my advice after all huh Erika?" just hearing his voice made me get goosebumps. fuck.
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great. now he knows.

"um Wendy I'll call you back tomorrow. gotta go bye."

"Erika don't you dare to ha-" oops too late. I hung up. I turned to look at Joel. he walked up to me, centimeters away from my face.

"so you broke up with your boyfriend huh?" he tried to hide his smile but clearly failed.

"well I couldn't continue to be in that relationship after what I did. which I regret by the way" lies. I don't regret it. never will I regret a kiss with Joel. but he didn't have to know that.

"really? you regret it? let's see if you regret this." he crashed his lips into mine and kissed me passionately. without evening realizing I kissed back. oh how had I missed his lips against mine.

Joel's POV
I had missed her more than anything. I hated myself for hurting her the way I did. feeling her lips against mine felt perfect. I know she feels the same way I do but she's scared that I will hurt her again. I pulled away from the kiss.

"now tell me. do you regret that?" I asked with a smile on my face.

"no, what I regret is falling for you. all you've done is hurt me. you left me, and now you come back and ruin my relationship and want to pretend nothing ever happened. well you're wrong Joel. You broke me. You broke my heart. And I hate you because I still love you. And I hate myself even more for it (Carrie Diaries anyone no? okay)and yes I did break up with my boyfriend but not to be with you but to avoid hurting him like you hurt me. please just leave me alone."

well that wasn't the answer I was expecting.

"I will never leave you alone. never. do you understand that. you want to know why? because I love you. and even though you hate me I will never stop showing you the love I feel towards you. no matter how many times you push me away. and I hate myself too for causing you all this pain but I will fight for you...for us."

Erika's POV
I turned and made my way back to my room. I immediately changed into my pjs and got in bed. I loved him. I truly did. but I couldn't just let him come back into my life ruin my relationship and then pretend nothing had ever happened. I decided to try and fall asleep since I had the dance auditions tomorrow.

•next morning•
my alarm went off at 6:00 am. ew. Miami was 3 hours ahead of California so I didn't really mind the time change. I got up and went into the bathroom. I took a quick shower. after showering I pick out my outfit. I put on my undies, a Nike sport bra, Adidas sweats and a loose dance tank top. I slipped on my running shoes. I blow dried my hair and put it into a high ponytail. I then proceeded to covering the hickey. I used water proof makeup. my ankle was still sore but I think I was going to be able to make it through the auditions. Johann knocked on my door.

"Erika, hurry the freak up. the van will be here any minute." I got my jazz shoes,iPhone, headphones, MacBook, a water bottle and put them in a backpack. since the auditions were going to end before the guys practice I had to stay because Johann was my ride and I had to entertain myself meanwhile.

"ready. let's go" we made our way down to the lobby and waited outside for the van. a few minutes later a black van pulled up and the door opened. inside I saw Joel and another boy. he had big ears but he was cute so it balanced out (lol). I tried to avoid eye contact with Joel. he was sitting all the way in the back so I sat in the front with the other guy.

"Aye Yolandra." Johann said to the guy next to me. Yolandra? what kind of name was that? I gave them a weird look.

"oh no. my name is not Yolandra. don't worry." he let out a chuckle. "my name is Yoandri. Yoandri Cabrera. nice to meet you...?"

"Erika. nice to meet you too. what an unusual name. like not in a rude way. its unusual but I like it" I smiled at him.

"yea what an unusual name Yoandri." Joel butted in the conversation. I rolled my eyes and put in my headphones. we picked up the rest of the guys and made out way to the studio. as soon as the van stopped I hope out and made my way inside. I saw a sign that said Dance Auditions. the room was full of girls. a lady came out.

"good morning girls. thank you for coming out to the auditions. if you have jazz shoes please slip em on. I will go around asking for name, age and how long you've been taking dance." she began to make her way around the room  she finally got to me.

"hi my name is Erika Vera, I'm 16 years old and I have been dancing for 12 years." I smiled.

"Vera huh? are you by any chance related to Johann?"

"uh yea. I'm his sister actually"

"well can't wait to see you on the dance floor. good luck."

"thank you!"

they began to teach us a routine. after learning it for a couple of hours, it was time to show the other teachers and they would choose 12 backup dancers. each of us were given numbers. the ones that made it were being called out. there were only 2 spots left.

"will number 25 step up please." that was a girl named Koko. she has a great dancer. "and the final backup dancer is...number 17. Erika Vera." oh my god. I made it in. I couldn't believe it. they congratulated all the girls and told us out first meeting would be tomorrow. I made my way to the boys rehearsal room. when I walked in I saw Yoandri sitting on the side and decided to go sit next to him.

"hey Yolandra" he let out a small chuckle.

"please don't call me that. I have enough of it with Johann. call me Yoandri or yoyo if you prefer. why are you all sweaty ew" he cringed his nose.

"haha funny. I just came out of the backup dance auditions for the live shows."

"really. how'd it go?"

"I made it!"

"omg congrats." he gave me a hug. thing I wasn't expecting. I heard someone clearing their throat. we pulled away and looked up to see Joel standing in front of us.

"Erika can we talk?"

"um sorry. Yoandri and I were just leaving for lunch." I grabbed Yoandri's wrist and pulled him up.

"we were?" he asked with a confused look on his face.

"yes we are. sorry Joel" and with that I left. 
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