Obese // Ashton Irwin [On Hold]

Secret

Whale, Whale, Whale

Secret

I couldn't help it when I almost fell to the floor and cried. Michael caught me and wrapped his arm around my neck and his hand settled on my hip, or what's supposed to be it.

My arms go around his torso, and eyes cry into his chest. My body shakes violently with every sob and I find myself not being able to breath. Michael walks me to his bed and lies me down, covering me with his duvet. He walks to his bathroom as my eyes fall heavy, and the last thing I see is Michael putting the pregnancy tests in a bag and throwing them in the small trash bin.

I wake up about two hours later, while Michael is watching Mean Girls. I stir and feel a slight headache. Michael sees me and smiles, looking back at the movie. "Had a nice nap?" He muses, pausing the movie.

I shrug. He hands me my phone. "Kelsey called. I texted her pretending to be you. You hungry?" I nod and get up. I stumble a little and Michael is quickly on his feet. "Easy." He gently says. I sigh and let him walk me to the kitchen. He serves me random cereal and leaves me to go get my shoes.

"So I would drive you home but I just saw the time and I'm going to have to take you with me." I furrow my eyebrows and take a spoonful of cereal into my mouth. "Why?"

"Because the guys and I have a gig today, which is why they were a little pissed. So hurry up and eat while I go get ready?" I do as he says and in less than five minutes, were out the door and driving for ten minutes.

We arrive at a small restaurant. Not many people.

We were there for at least an hour, with about twelve people. They were alright I guess but they're songs were a little too... band boyish.

At first, Luke Calum and Ashton had freaked out because I was there. Then, they realized they need the support and someone to cheer them on if they sucked. They left a little bummed, and that's when Ashton approached me and I tensed up.

"Are you and Michael..." he trailed off. I rolled my eyes. "Because if you are, that's okay. But I-"

"You what? Saw me first? You had your chance."

"Can we please just talk normally?"

"We are." He glares at me. "Please." He begs. I huff and we start walking towards a pizza place with the guys following behind talking at a safe distance.

"I'm sorry. For not calling you."

"I don't know why I expected you to." I mumbled, crossing my arms.

I wonder how it looks from far away, me and Ashton walking together.

"I just... I made a mistake. I shouldn't have dated you. I didn't really want to date you. It was a rational decision that I did because I broke up with my girlfriend." My heart breaks, cringing, tears pricking at my eyes. I stop in my tracks. "And it wasn't supposed to go as far as it did-

"So you had sex with me to get back at your girlfriend?" His eyes widen and he starts shaking his head. "No, Red-"

"Don't call me that." I snap. His eyes soften. "Meredith, I'm sorry I didn't mean to-"

I bite my lip and close my eyes. "How can you be so cold, Ashton?" He looks at me with that sympathetic look in his eyes. I was used. And because of that, I'm pregnant.

"You ruined my life, Ashton." I whisper. "You ruined the life of someone innocent," I say, placing a hand over my stomach. "Someone so helpless, small and unaware of what they're going to be born into." I whisper lowly to myself.