Phan One-shots

XO-Phil's POV

~This one's based off of the song "XO" originally by Beyonce, but give the cover by John Mayer a listen! It's my preferred version. This one is going to get sad. Be warned.~

  In the darkest night hour 
I'll search through the crowd 
Your face is all that I see  

I remember when we when we first met. My university friends had dragged me to a night club, and I was standing by myself, awkwardly bobbing my head up and down. It was nearing midnight, and I just wanted to leave, but my friends were still enjoying themselves. I decided to join the masses who were dancing, and I saw you through the crowd. 

You were kind of awkward like me, but you were trying to enjoy yourself. I couldn't stop staring at you. You were so beautiful, with your dark brown eyes and perfect brown fringe. I finally got up the courage to walk over and introduce myself.

"Um, hello!" I yelled over the music. "I'm Phil! Would you, erm, like to dance?"

You smiled at me. "Hi, Phil! I'm Dan! I saw you earlier, and I was hoping you would ask."

We danced together for the rest of the night, and we exchanged numbers. We wouldn't stop texting each other, and eventually you asked me on a date. We had the greatest time, and it was there we kissed for the first time. I knew right there and then, that you were the one for me. 

  We don't have forever
Ooh, baby daylight's wasting 
You better kiss me 
Before our time has run out  

We had been together for four years, and I realized that I had to do it. You were everything to me, all I had ever wanted in life. My everything. I was so scared, though. What if you rejected? What if you weren't ready? But I realized that the day was ending, and I had to just go for it.

We were strolling the streets of London, and we went to our favorite park. The one where we would always sit and watch the sun set. You were chattering happily as we sat on the bench we always sat on. While you were distracted, I got down on one knee. When you noticed, I saw the tears in your eyes.

"Daniel Howell, I love you so much. You are my everything. Will you marry me?"

You nodded, barely able to speak as I slid the ring on your finger. We locked eyes, and then you said, "Well, Phil, you just proposed. You'd better kiss me right now."

We locked lips, and I slid my hands into your hair. Sure, some people gave disapproving looks, but we didn't care. All we knew, is that we were passionately in love, and nothing could change that.

  I'll give you everything
Baby, love me lights out
Baby, love me lights out

The night of our wedding, we entered our apartment. I smiled at you, and you smiled back, both of us knowing what we were about to do. You kissed me gently on the lips, and then whispered in my ear, "I love you, Phil. I will give you all of me. Every bit of me. You are all I have ever wanted in my life."

I smiled and whispered back to you, "And I will give you all of me. I love you, too, Dan. More than you will ever know."

 I love you like XO
You love me like XO
You kill me boy XO
You love me like XO
All that I see  

It's been six months since we said I do, and I still love you as much as I did when we first fell in love. I was going to enjoy a holiday with my family in Florida. We stood at security, me not wanting to get on the plane, and you not wanting to leave me. I hugged you and said, "I love you, Dan. You are the only one for me. I'll be back in a week, not long at all."

You kissed me on the cheek. "I know, I love you, too. I just hate being away from you, no matter how short. Promise you'll come home safely."

"I promise." I whispered, before kissing you. We pulled away, and I made my way through security, waving to you as I went through. We kept waving until I couldn't see you anymore. 

When I was about to get on the plane, I texted you. Getting on the plane now. Love you, Dan. You texted back immediately, saying, Love you, too, Philly. Have a safe flight. 

  In the darkest night hour 
I'll search through the crowd 
Your face is all that I see
I'll give you everything
Baby, love me lights out
Baby, love me lights out
You can turn my lights out  

I looked out the window of the plane to see the night sky, and I thought of you. Of the night we met. We had a lot of turbulence, but I didn't give it any thought. 

"Attention, passengers. I'm sorry to say, but we have experienced a serious malfunction. We are currently flying over the ocean. There is not much we can do, I'm sorry."

I sit in shock, not sure how to respond to the announcement. My only thought is I can't keep my promise to Dan. 

All I can think of is your face. Of how we met, of our first date, of the look on your face when I proposed. The lights on the plane go out, and people start panicking. I take out my phone and call you.

"Phil? Aren't you on the plane?"

"Dan, the plane's malfunctioning. There's-there's nothing they can do."

"NO PHIL. PLEASE TELL ME YOU'RE JOKING!!" I can hear the tears in your voice.

"No, Dan. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I can't keep my promise to you. I love you more than I can say. I will love you forever, in whatever comes after this life."

"I love you, too, Phil. I don't know how I'll survive without you. Please, stay with me on the phone until- it happens."

"I will. Promise me, something Dan. Promise you'll live after all of this. That you will live your life to the fullest."

"I promise."

We talk until I feel it. I feel the plane going down, I feel the sharp descent.

"Dan. The plane's going down. I love you! I love you! I love you! Don't ever forget that! Don't forget your promise. I love you, Daniel Lester."

"I promise. I love you, Philip Lester."

~Dan's POV~

All I hear is a loud noise, then silence. I sit on our bed, sobbing. I look through my phone at pictures of us. Pictures over the last years of our lives that were intertwined. I remember the last words you said to me. 

"I love you, Daniel Lester."