Phan One-shots

Lost Boy- Phil's POV

~This one is based off of the song "Lost Boy" by Ruth B. I heard it on the radio yesterday and LOVED IT and I knew I had to write a one shot. Enjoy~

  There was a time when I was alone
Nowhere to go and no place to call home
My only friend was the man in the moon
And even sometimes he would go away, too  

There was a time, before I met Dan, when I was alone.  I had no real friends, no job, no home. I would just crash at the flats of my "friends" until the next morning. When I would find a new person to mooch off of. 

The "friends" I had would get annoyed with me easily. They would abandon me, and tell me that I was too much. 

A lot of nights I would have to sleep in a park somewhere, staring up at the London sky. The stars it seemed were the only company I had. I liked to think it was like Lion King, that the stars were people. Like I was being watched over.

But sometimes even the stars were blocked from my sight.

And I was completely alone again.

  Then one night, as I closed my eyes,
I saw a shadow flying high
He came to me with the sweetest smile
Told me he wanted to talk for awhile
He said, "Peter Pan. That's what they call me.
I promise that you'll never be lonely."
And ever since that day...  

One night I was laying on a bench, the one blanket I owned wrapped around me, in a desperate attempt to block out the cold winter weather. The stars were blocked by the clouds. Loneliness was settling in.

That's when I saw a shadow standing over me. I was scared of who or what it could be. Instead of the monster I was afraid it would be, I was greeted with soft brown eyes and a sweet smile.

"Hi, I'm Dan." You said. 

I sat up. "I'm Phil."

"I see you out here alone a lot," Dan had said. "How come?"

I was surprised- he seemed genuinely concerned. "I, uh, I don't have anywhere to live."

"Why not?"

"My parents kicked me out when I turned 18 eight months ago, and I don't have a job or any money."

Dan continued talking to me for the next hour. He finally got up and help out his hand to me. "I  live by myself in a flat. Wanna come and stay the night? It's really cold outside; you could get sick."

"A-are you sure? I wouldn't want to a burden."

Dan laughed. "Don't be ridiculous- of course I'm sure! Now come on, Phil!" 

I stayed with him for a week, before telling Dan that I was overstaying my welcome, and I should leave. He put his hand on my shoulder. "No, Phil. You should stay. I'm alone here, and I've always hated it; I've been wanting a flat mate."

I thought about it. It would mean that I wouldn't be alone again. I also really liked Dan, so I agreed. 

  I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy, " they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."  

Being with Dan is like being in Neverland. I'm always happy with him, I feel like a little kid with him. I feel like I've escaped from the horrible reality I had before he found me. 

"Run, run, lost boy," my thoughts tell me. "Away from all of reality." Run from the reality your life was before Dan. Escape into the wonderful new life you have. Forget everything prior to it.

  Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free  

I am finally free. Free from reality. 

  He sprinkled me in pixie dust and told me to believe
Believe in him and believe in me
Together we will fly away in a cloud of green
To your beautiful destiny
As we soared above the town that never loved me
I realized I finally had a family
Soon enough we reached Neverland
Peacefully my feet hit the sand
And ever since that day...  

I had never thought I was good for anything. That's what I had been told my entire life;

"God, Phil! You're such a failure!" My dad would yell at me.

"You're such a good for nothing burden! I wish I would have never had you!" my mom would scream.

"What a useless human, no one even likes you." The kids at school would say.

"I can't believe you don't understand this, Phil. It's so simple." My teachers would sigh.

"You will never become anything in life, Phil. So stop trying." I said to myself.

I said this to Dan one day, when he was asking me what I wanted to do in life; Dan had said that he had been studying law, but gave up because it wasn't "him."

Dan looked at me sadly and pulled me into a hug. "But Phil," he said. "I know you can accomplish something great in your life! Believe in yourself, because you are incredible."

"And I'll help you believe, Phil. Believe in me, too."

I ended up getting a job at Tesco's, and started paying for our groceries as my rent, as Dan wouldn't let me pay rent.

One month.

Two months.

Six months.

One year.

The time that passed while I lived with Dan. 

I realized one day that someone, for the first time in my life, actually cared for me.

Loved me.

I was loved.

  I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy, " they say to me,
"Away from all of reality."  

Dan and I were each other's worlds. 

It seemed like I was always running from the depression and the feeling of worthlessness that was chasing me. Always running, never resting. Never slowing down, because if I did, I would be overtaken.

So I never stopped running away from the darkness pursuing me.

I told Dan about this, about how I felt, and he told me, "Keep on running, Phil. And I'll help you, I pull you along when you feel you can't run anymore."

  Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free  

I am a lost boy. 

And I am free.

  Peter Pan, Tinker Bell, Wendy Darling,
Even Captain Hook.
You are my perfect story book
Neverland, I love you so,
You are now my home sweet home
Forever a lost boy at last  

All of this life I have now, with Dan, it's perfection. I feel like for the first time in my life that I'm actually alive. Even the depression chasing me, it adds to the reality of it all. 

Dan, this new life, the flat even, I love it so much.

And I say it every single day.

This flat in London with Dan is more of a home than I've ever had.

  Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free  

Forever free with you, Dan.

Finally.

And forever.