Phan One-shots

Already Gone- Phil's POV

~This one-shot is based off of the song "Already Gone" by Sleeping At Last (oh, I just learned it's a cover of Kelly Clarkson's song, but I love this guys voice). Great band, I highly recommend. I hope you enjoy it~

  Remember all the things we wanted
Now all the memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

Dan, do you remember when we first got together? The hopes and dreams we had, all the good times we had? Our plans for the future?

It almost hurts to remember it all.

We've so hard to make it work out, but I guess we  just aren't meant to be. No matter how much we fight for our love, for each other, it won't have work out. We just- we aren't made for each other like we had thought.

Like our fans think.

  I didn't want us to burn out, I
I didn't come here to hurt you, now I can't stop  

I never wanted this to happen. I don't want us to end. I wish we could stay together, and I don't want to hurt you, but I don't know how to say this without hurting you.

  I want you to know
It doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone  

Whatever happens in our life after this, I guess it doesn't matter much, because our lives will no longer be intertwined. Whether we continue YouTube or not, or get real jobs, or whatever it is we decide to do.

Our fighting's gotten to be too much, Dan. The constant arguing and nagging, the angry words and slammed doors. The tears and empty apologies we're both guilty of. Something's gotta change. It's been needing to change. 

So I'll change. I have to go, because it's what best for both of us.

Dan, all the anger and fighting aside, you are perfect. It's nothing you specifically have done- it's been both of us. You couldn't have loved me differently or "better" to make me stay, I promise. 

But I want to to find someone you can do better with, who you can get along with and have only minimal fights with. 

I want you to move on, and find someone, Dan.

So, I'm leaving; I'm gone. 

  Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
Doesn't always make you want to cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive

Before I left, I woke up next to you, and I gave you one last look. I wanted to burst into tears and stay, but I knew that it wouldn't be the best for us. 

I took another look at your peaceful sleep when I walked out of our room, suitcase full. I know that you'll find someone else, who doesn't yell back and make you cry. 

Do you remember our first kiss? The first Phil is Not On Fire, I tackled you to the ground at the very end. We were fine for a year or so before the poison came in and began to slowly kill what we had. Nothing can revive what we had. 

  Know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go  

I love you, Dan. I love you so much. So much so, that I have to let you go. Like the bird who has to let the nestlings go, I have to let you fly away and find better, true love.

I love you enough that I won't be selfish and keep you miserable forever.

  I want you to know
It doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
So I'm already gone  

Whatever happens in your life and mine, it's going to be okay, I promise.

We'll learn to live without each other. 

And maybe after enough time has passed, we can call each other and talk through things. Be friends again. 

Until then, though, I have to disappear out of your life altogether, for the best. I have only the best in mind, Dan. You've loved me perfectly, but you need to move on. Love someone who's worth that perfect love you give.

  Remember all the things we wanted
Now all the memories they're haunted

The plans we had, I guess they weren't meant to be. 

I'll always have good memories, Dan. Even though some of them may be tainted by the sickness we let set in.

We were always meant to say g o o d b y e . . .  

Goodbye, Daniel. I'm sorry it couldn't have worked out. I love you,

-Phil

Dan's POV

I wake up to a bed void of Phil. Confused, I get up, looking for him. 

I enter the kitchen, and see a piece of paper on the counter. I pick it up and read it through; a note from Phil.

  We were always meant to say goodbye  

  I cry, seeing these words, this letter.

So I'm already gone...