Flower Boy

Chapter Thirty Two

Chapter Thirty Two

I unlocked the door, listening for any signs of James. Hearing nothing, I hurried to the desk in the guest room and pulled out two more pieces of paper, getting to work.

Finishing up, I folded them up and placed one in the crack between the door and the doorframe. Leaving through the garage, I rode the bus until I reached the house where I had grown up. Using the key I had kept, I unlocked the door and shivered at the cold of the unused house. I didn't even know if they would find it, but I placed the folded piece of paper on the table. I left quickly, locking the door behind me. I got on the bus again, riding to my local CVS and bought a box of sleeping pills. Taking my final bus ride, I took a few deep breaths to settle my nerves. I wasn't scared, but I sent out my thoughts to everyone, apologizing for what I was about to do.

I got off, and took a long look at the house where I had spent so much time with Donavan and James. I took a deep breath and went in through the garage, looking at the box to see how many pills were in it. According to what I heard, 20-30 pills would kill me. I knew I could take about 4 at a time. I opened up the box and got a bottle of water. I was about to start, but then I realized, I couldn't just do it in this house. I thought about where I could go, when it hit me. I would just go to the place where it all started.

I left the house and sprinted to the park, the box in one hand and a bottle of water in the other. I sat on the bench, panting for breath. I quickly poked all the pills out of the casing. I took a deep breath and prepared myself. I thought of Donavan, all the good memories. I unscrewed the cap of the bottle and brought up a handful of pills. I put them in my mouth and took a sip of water quickly swallowing. I felt them slip down my throat and I grabbed another handful.

Another sip of water. Swallow. Breath. Another handful. Sip of water. Swallow. Breath. Over and over until there were no more pills left. I sat on the bench, feeling drowsy, closing my eyes. I sighed, a small smile on my face as I slowly lost feeling in my body. I shut my eyes for what I suspected was going to be the last time.

Donavan, I'm coming.