wings : haikyuu!! drabbles

fall in love : yamaguchi tadashi

« i know i'll fall in love with you »

"I never meant to fall in love with you, (f/n)," he said, his words filling the thick air of the room. Almost like they broke it.

Yamaguchi's confession was fainthearted. His shy demeanour didn't really help his heart beating out of his chest; he felt like he was putting it the wrong way.

How could one display love and affection to their most beloved one in the wrong way tho?

Hands trembling, breaths shaking, lips parting, he was so afraid to continue what he wanted to tell you.

As you were sitting next to him, hands intertwined, you felt the need to pull him close and let your tears find their way down your cheeks. You wanted to think he's not going to say anything that might break you, you wanted him to tell you he loves you just as much as you love him. So, instead of crying your heart out while clinging onto him, you let your tears shade your eyes as you held onto his hand tighter.

You let that hint of worry and despair wash through your face, which he could recognise even from far away. He knew he was putting it the wrong way. He knew he made you feel like he doesn't love you anymore. He knew. He knew all too well how you deserved someone who made you feel more special than he did with his morning kisses, who made you happier than he did with the way he told you he fell in love with you all over again, he knew.

He knew he shouldn't have formed his words like that.

But he was fully aware how the only thing he was going to do was telling you how you are the only thing by now that keeps him sane.

Seeing your worried expression, he let his hand find its way up to your cheeks, cupping them as his thumb caressed away a teardrop that you let escape.

As his lips parted to continue, you took the chance from him to say anything.

"Do you regret falling in love with me?" You asked, not sure of anything anymore. You just needed him, you needed him more than anything or anyone.

And God, he needed you just as much if not more.

"(f/n)...No, of course I don't," his words slipped out as mere stutters as he couldn't believe that he made you think something like that, "Falling in love with you was the best thing that could've ever happened to me."

Looking up at him again with tears rolling down your cheeks, you couldn't take it in anymore and moved yourself to fall into his comforting embrace, hiding your features in his warm chest.

You could hear how fast his heart was beating. It was always something that could soothe you, his heartbeat, his steady breathing. The fact of his existence.

Tracing his fingertips on your skin, the hand he had free wandered to your back to caress it as the other one held onto yours even more if that was possible.

Kissing the top of your head as he felt your trembling being against him, he finally tried to finish what he wanted to say.

"I was afraid of love," he started, voice unsteady, "I was afraid of falling in love, but then you came. And I let myself fall for you, and, in some magical way, you started to love me too. I didn't even notice but I fell in love with you more and more with every passing day. I never meant to fall in love with you but here we are. I love loving you. I love you, (f/n)."

You just loved how he could make you feel safe and sound with his words and simple presence.

It was him. It was all him and his love for you and that was the only thing that mattered to you.

« but that's not what i want to do »

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hi there!

it's been a while // cries

i don't know what this is, it's angsty yet not really so yeah

it's something? i guess

i don't know how writing goes these days! it's weird

anyways, i hope you enjoyed! stay safe and see you next time // aka in later

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