Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
-Robert Frost
I was the one to travel the road less traveled by. I was the one to go against the grain and stand out in a crowd. I ha...
I stood in front of the mirror as I massaged this stretch mark preventing cream on my stomach before putting on my sweatshirt that I plan to lounge around in all day.
I don't even know how far along I am, but I must not be that far since I'm not showing that much. I'm so stressed out right now. Like I'm scared to tell Laurent that I'm pregnant. If I'm not ready to have a child, then I know that he definitely isn't ready.
"Hey.." He says and I jump up looking at him in the mirror to see him peeking his head in through the door. "I'm about to head out. I'll be back later tonight." he informs me.
I just nod my head putting my damp hair up into a ponytail. I watch him as he steps further into the room.
"You no want to come?" He asked surprised that I didn't want to tag along.
"Nah, I'm okay. I don't wanna be in your way" I turned around facing him and walking towards the other dresser near the door.
I went through my sock drawer and grabbed a pair of black thigh-high socks. I sit down on the edge of my bed to put them on.
"You not be in the way." He leans against the wall next to the door "We just have meetings and then do a dance video real quick, that's it." He crosses his arms shrugging his shoulders
"It's okay, Lau. I'm fine." I pulled my socks up to my thigh and stood up
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"You sure?" He asked raising an eyebrow and I just nod my head smiling. "Okii..." He walks towards me "I love you, okii" He says and I nod before he kisses me on the lips.
I handed him my keys and walk him to the front door and locked it behind him once he left. I turned around and walked over towards my speakers in the living room. I connected my phone to the Bluetooth and began playing Candice Pillay's album titled The Mood Kill.
Being pregnant is a total mood kill for me...
I went into the kitchen and got ready to make dinner since it was already around 6 in the evening. Luckily I have enough food to feed me, Lau, and Khalea since she will be coming over tomorrow morning.
I'm so used to living on my own that I don't how I will be able to care for someone else other than myself. And this other person will have to depend on me to feed them, clothe them, wash them, play with them, make sure they've burped, change their dirty diapers, wake up in the middle of the night to feed them, everything. I can barely manage myself right now. How the hell am I supposed to do all of that plus what I already have on my plate.
I've just been hella busy here lately. This pregnancy is about to get in the way. I have to worry about our actual walk-in store and our website. Then we have events related to the BET awards coming up in a few weeks. I'm stressing out and it's not good to be stressed like this especially when you're pregnant. This was an absolute bad time to get preggo.
