Attachment ☹ SHAYLOR Text Messaging Book

#19 1-800-Suicide

cry baby trigger texts

7:22 pm

Shawn: Hello?

Taylor: Yes, sir.

Shawn: This is the suicide text number right?

Taylor: No...

Shawn: Sorry. I gotta go. Wrong number then.

Taylor: No!

Taylor: Come back!

Taylor: I may not be the hotline but I can help.

Shawn: How do I know I can trust you?

Taylor: Because I care. Because I want you to live.

Shawn: You don't know me.

Shawn: This was all an accident.

Shawn: See, it was meant to be. I couldn't find help just once. I had to text the wrong number. I deserve to die.

Taylor: Dont say that.

Taylor: You have me. You found me. I will be here, every goddamn step of the way.

7:40 pm

Taylor: Hey? I never got your name.

Taylor: Hope you're alright.

7:50 pm

Taylor: I'm so fucking worried.

Taylor: ?

Taylor: Please.

Taylor: You've got to be okay.

8:42 pm

Taylor: I've been checking hourly.

Taylor: I hope for the best.

9:04 pm

Taylor: I know maybe I'm coming off as clingy or these texts are maybe irritating you, but it's only because I'm worried and nervous. I care a lot and hope you see these and change your mind about this whole... feeling.

11:11 pm

Shawn: I wish I was dead.

Taylor: No! Hey!

Taylor: You text back! You're alive!

Shawn: Thank you for those messages.

Shawn: You're like the only one who cares.

Shawn: But, you don't even know me.

Taylor: I'll get to know you.

Taylor: I'm Taylor Caniff. And I want to help you get through things, only if you want me to. But I would love to.

Shawn: I'm Shawn Mendes.

Shawn: And, Taylor hmm? More like, life saver.

Taylor: Really?

Shawn: I still hate myself and hate living but you make this bittersweet.

Taylor: I hope I can make everything okay.

Shawn: Slowly you are.

Taylor: Perfect, Shawn! Baby steps. We've got to give life a second chance. I want the best for you and I want happiness granted to you.

Shawn: You're too kind. I don't know why you waste your time messaging me.

Taylor: I'm your suicide hotline.

Taylor: Forget the actual 1-800 number. You have me. I'm probably more real than all of those people who are hired to talk.

Taylor: I sound mean and make it seem like those people don't like their jobs. I'm sure they're doing justice saving so many day by day. I really meant to say was that I'm here for you. I can be here forever. Only if you stick I around long enough.

Shawn: Is it weird to want to say the word love so soon?

Taylor: I believe you say it when you feel it.

Shawn: I love you.

Taylor: I love you too. I'll never stop talking to you and I'll get you through all of this.

Shawn: Want to know why?

Taylor: Why what baby?

Shawn: Why I wanted to do what I had set out to before I messaged you.

Taylor: Go for it.

Shawn: I felt like nobody liked me. I felt like I'll never receive the love everybody deserves. I don't deserve it. I feel unwanted and unloved. I don't think I'll ever find anybody. Without my breath, surly I'll get out of the way.

Taylor: I love you. I will love you. You mean something to me. Say you'll stick around to find your true love.

Shawn: I'll stick around for you.

12:08 am

Shawn: Tay?

Shawn: Night...

3:13 am

Shawn: Taylor!

Shawn: Please wake up!

Shawn: I had an awful dream.

Shawn: Taylor!

Shawn: You don't love me! You don't care! You only did it for one day until you felt like I would kill myself anymore. I'm done.

9:05 am

Taylor: Morning Shawn! A lot of message notifications here. Allow me to read.

Taylor: Shawn!!!

Taylor: Shawn come back. I just slept early. And I didn't have my phone on to read those late messages. You've got to at least understand that right?

Taylor: I'm here for you always but I'm sorry I can't get to you at night.

Shawn: It's okay...

Taylor: You had me so worried.

Shawn: I'm sorry for over exaggerating.

Taylor: No. Don't use that word. You were afraid and I wasn't here for you.

Shawn: Will you really always be here?

Taylor: I can promise on it. Do you trust me?

Shawn: I do.

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Read my book Do You Mean What You Say. It's kinda sad, sort of based off Act Like You Love me but not quite. In which Shawn knows Taylor is cheating but doesn't have the strength to leave him.

I finished writing it so you'll definitely get a publish every Tuesday and maybe Thursday. Thirty chapters! Three are up for now.

I would like to further write about this, maybe in a new book. Not sure!

for you MeganRoseMerant

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