I walked down the familiar green place and stopped when I found the names I was looking for.
Shayne Elizabeth Carter
"You'll never be forgotten."
December 15, 1993 - February 15, 2015
James Elizon Carter Payne / Jamie Eliza Carter Payne
"We love you, little Angel."
I placed the flowers beside their tombstones and sat down. I also placed the pile of unopened letters beside Shayne's.
"Hey, love. Hey little angel." I smiled. Shayne and I used to visit James or Lizzie when she was still alive but for the past 2 years, it's only me who visits him or her. Sometimes I go here with the lads.
"It's your 2nd year today. I'm sorry I wasn't able to visit you for the past 2 months. Are you happy? Did you see our baby yet? I can still feel you near me, Shayne. Everyday for the past two years, I still long for you. I miss you more with each passing day." I paused as tears started falling from my eyes.
"You visit me in my sleep, every single night. Thank you. Oh, and I have some news for you sweetheart. I finally found a new flat. I'm moving in tomorrow morning. The house feels so lonely and empty without you there. It brings a lot of memories, and I don't think I can handle the pain anymore." I told her.
"I'm not sure if you know this already but Louis and Eleanor are engaged, same with Zayn and Perrie. I remember when we told them the news about us being engaged. I miss you babe, so much. I can still remember that night like it was just yesterday." I sighed.
"Harry is finally in a steady relationship. He got Mary pregnant and now they are engaged too. Niall is still looking for a place where it's legal to marry food." I chuckled. "Kidding, he's dating your other friend... Claire? Was that her name? Yeah, Claire." I told her. "How about me you ask? Well, I've been going out on a few dates. I hope that's okay, baby." In some strange way, I felt her hug and kiss on my cheek. I even heard her whisper something like she's happy for me. Maybe I'm crazy? I should visit a doctor later.
"But somehow, I can't fully feel like I'm ready. Maybe I just need a bit more time. You think?" I smiled. I looked at my watch and saw the time.
"I have to go now, Shayne. We still have rehearsals later. The day after tomorrow, we're leaving for America again." I told her. "I won't be visiting for another month. But, I love you babe. Forever and always."
I felt her hug again. It was like a cold breeze but I felt it. She hugged me. I stood up and brushed the dirt off my jeans.
"I love you both."
Today, I left the cemetery with a smile on my face and feeling lighter. It was different from the usual gloomy aura I have every time I leave from a visit. But maybe it's because with the signs, I know she's finally happy.
I know. How? Because the sky is bright and it's not cloudy, too.
End ~
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