neon.

tampons and fistfights.

So it is 9:20 currently and I'm rushing to get dressed. I throw on a black hoodie and white jeans with black vans. Wow, I really am a color deprived person. I put on minimal make up and pop on a white snap-back. I hope I look okay, I mean I guess I like this kid. I check my phone and it reads 9:55. I wait by the door. Then I pace back and forth at the front door. I hope he remembers to come and get me. Then I stop in my tracks. What if Erin won't be there? I don't trust Calum as much as I could if I get to know him. And I barely know Luke, I don't even know how old he is! I calm myself down and hear the doorbell ring.

He remembered.

I walk over to the door and before I open it I get nervous. Do I look okay? What if he asks about my depression again? The questions spill through my mind. I snap out of it and remember there is a 6'4 punk waiting out there. I open the door and he is leaning on the door frame.

"Ready to go?" he looked back at his Toyota GT86.

"Yeah, sorry took so long!" I say grabbing my black and white sling backpack.

"Coolio, let's go." He says turning around.

I lock up the house and follow him. He holds open the car door for me. Oh I assume he's some gentleman punk? He jogged around the front of the car. He starts up the car and starts driving.

"Thanks for coming with." He says his eyes darting from car to car.

"Oh no problem!" I say smiling. Luke reaches over and turns on the radio. Justin Bieber boomed through the speakers. I laugh and he turns red.

"I'm not listening to shit." He shakes his head, changing the channel. Next was Kanye, then Drake, Fetty Wap, and he stopped on Troye Sivan, Youth.
" It's the best on here." He shrugs.
"I'm obsessed with Troye!" I lightly punch him.
"I'm more into Nirvana." He punches me back.
We stay kinda silent the rest of the ride.

He pulls up at Calum's house. I've never been to his house before. Luke gets out and opens my door before I do. What a kind guy. Maybe he's not a punk.

This area makes me feel unsafe. There are guys leaning on the house next to Calum's doing drugs and there were a lot of broken bottles on the side walk and street. I willingly walked closer to Luke. We got to the door and he knocked. Calum opens up.
"Hey dude..? What the fuck? What's she doing here?" He questions.
"Is it not okay if she's here?" He says, partially irate.
"I feel as if she's too pampered to be around here." He said eyeing me up and down. It was cold and I started shivering.
"Dude, c'mon. This is what we're gonna argue about?! She can just talk to Erin for damn's sake." He says, his tone rising.
"FINE! Chill dude!" Calum says, rolling his eyes,"ERIN!! Get the fuck down here!"
Luke was turning red,"What the hell is going on with Calum."
He leads me inside. Erin sees me and rushes down. Calum walks into the living room.
"He's high, be careful. He gets so agitated and aggressive when he's like this. I'm so sorry guys." She says, looking hopeless.
"It's okay." I say as I hug her. Luke, on the other hand just gets more angry.
"I thought he told me he was not going to be a pothead. Especially living on his own without me or Michael." He snarls.
"It's okay, we can just work around it." I say looking up at him.
"You don't know Calum when he's like this." Erin says to me.
"Well, let's find out." Luke sighs, and we follow him into the living room.
"I'm so damn thirsty!" Calum bawled,"Go get me something to drink babe!" Erin gets up.
"I'll go and help her." I suggest.
"NO! Luke can help her." He snaps. Luke hesitates but gets up. He walks over to Calum and whispers something in his ear. Calum just rolls his eyes. Luke glanced at me but walked outside.

I turn to face Calum as he gets up and closes the door quietly. I get up and back to the wall. He's breathing heavily. He runs over to me, knocking my snap-back off, and pins me to the wall, gripping my neck and my pushing my stomach against the wall. I whack my head really hard against the wall. I see blood trickle on the wall next to me. I'm barely breathing. He kisses me and that's when Luke walks in. He launches at Calum and they land the ground smacking it hard. They toss around on the ground. Then Calum passes out. Luke checks if he has a pulse. I mean the guys a douche but he didn't want to kill him. I steadily walk back to the carpet where I lie down. Erin was standing and watching all of this from the door. She kneels down next to me.
"There's a gash." She tells Luke. Erin gets up to go and get a first aid kit. Luke comes and sits criss cross next to me. I climb into his lap, holding on to his torso. Damn he's tall. He cradles me, very carefully. Erin walks in and sits behind my head, where there was blood leaking out of it.
She applies a clean bandage to it. My hair's sticky with blood. She goes and wets a clean towel, bringing it back to help clean out the wound. I realize I'm still shaking in Luke's arms.
"Does it hurt?" He asks, noticing I haven't spoken this whole time.
"Y-Y-yes. B-but I'v-ve been in w-worse p-p-pain." I sob and choke into his chest. Jesus it really does hurt. My head stung. I feel dizzy and want to throw up. So I do, all over Luke. He doesn't even react. Ugh god I wish he wasn't so sweet.
"Let's go and get you cleaned up, Jamie. Luke, there must be some clean stuff in Calum's room." She says, pulling me up and helping me to the bathroom. She held the gauze as I hung my head over the bath. She ran warm water to clean out my hair. She helps me change into some old boxers and lends me a sports bra.
"Oh god you can see my cuts." I frowned.
"That's what you're worried about now? Come on, Luke won't care." She winks at me. I laughed a little. At least she's here, I don't know what I'd do without her. She helped me downstairs where Luke has gladly borrowed Calum's gray sleeping shirt and shorts. He'd already carried Calum to his room. Erin wraps a blanket around me and gives me ice to gently apply to my gash. Luke keeps sneaking glances at my legs and I know he had seen my incisions. I feel the color racing to my cheeks. Erin went upstairs to shower and get ready for bed. Then it was just me. And Luke. Sitting in pajamas. In Calum(the guy who tried to abuse me)'s living room. We're sitting on different couches but still quite close together. I slide the blanket off my shoulders. I became very embarrassed and flushed when he saw my cuts. But I just realized he could see all of them now. Up and down my arm, across my leg and even some on my stomach. He looks at me like he was hurt.
"If you ever need to, call me." He said frowning.
That hit me hard. Erin never picked up and my brother lives all the way in London, and it's impossible to keep up with his time and schedule.
"Thanks. I think I'll need it." I half smile.
He gets up and moved to sit next to me.
"Okay why did you decide to help me? Besides you just being a nice person? I mean you could have gotten hurt." I say looking him sharp in the eye.
"I don't know but seeing him um, well. I'll just say it. Seeing him kiss you like that made fired me up with umm, jealousy. So I just jumped I guess." He looks away shyly. This kid becomes cuter and cuter every time I see him. Then he turns his head and faces me. I see he has a black eye and he has a bad bloody nose. He had gotten a tissue but that didn't work out. I get up and dig through my bag. I pull out a (yes, I know) tampon. I bring it over and he looks at it curiously. He realized what it is and looks a little confused.
"Ummm here?" He asked awkwardly. I burst into a fit of laughter. I laugh until my jaw hurts and my sides burn. He keeps on staring at me with a confused look plastered on his face.
"No, you idiot! It's for your nose! Nice try though!" I continue laughing whilst undoing the packaging. He starts laughing as well. I stick it up his nose and eureka, it works.
Erin comes down to see a tampon stuck up Luke's nose and us both nearly dead with laughter.
"I'm not going to ask." She giggles.
She sat on the couch next to us and gave us pillows.
"Okay guys we better get some sleep! Who want to sleep on the floor?" She smiles.
"I will." Luke raises his hand. He lies down on the carpet next to the couch.
"You know what I'll sleep in the guest bedroom! Here Luke, you can have this couch." She smirks at me. I roll my eyes in response.
"You sure?" He asks.
"Positive! Good night love bird- I mean guys!" She smiles. I hate her so much, she's my best friend.
He climbs onto the couch and Erin turns off the light.

"Night."

"Night."

And the thought of his blue eyes mellowed me to sleep.

And he became a part of my life. Without a word.