Looking down from heaven

Long lost memories

Hey guys!
Ok so I haven't updated in FOREVER it's just really hard work especially when some bitch at school thinks she's queen bee and makes you feel like dirt when she shows off to make yourself compare to her and thief you joy. Because comparison is the thief of joy, let's face it. UGH. Anyway rant over I really hope you enjoy this chapter and I promise I will try to update more, I just don't want to give you crappy chapters like some people do.

Anyway, enjoy!

Jasmin xox

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Chloe's POV
My breathes rasped as I looked around at the beaming smiles looking down on me.

And my heart leaped as I saw my mum-

Alive.

I could feel my blood dancing around my body as the REAL tears of happiness dribbled down my face

"YOUR ALIVE" I squealed

I couldn't help myself this-

This was the best moment of my life without doubt.

Or my new life.

Like any happy moment of my life-

It was ruined.

By, hatred, sadness, anger-

The whole lot.

It engulfed me as I remembered why I died in the first-

The texts, the betraying boyfriend and a bitchy best friend.

And now I want nothing but to die again.

My new steady breathes, stopped as memories escaped my eyes and dripped down my cheeks.

Because deep inside, where nothing's fine,

I'vE lOsT mY mInD.

Don't worry, they say-

You'll get free therapy, they say-

You'll be back to normal in no time, they say-

You'll be our daughter again.

What's that supposed to mean?

I'm not their daughter now?

I'm just a crazy depressed girl with a name full of hope but a life full of disaster?

I'm just a patient at a Psychiatric hospital doomed to drown in my own pity?

And no one can love me when I'm like this?

I'm just the fucking girl who cries herself to sleep and then dreams of her ex to wake up to the reality of life.

Because my dreams of future crumpled away as I just wanted to simply die

Nothing more, nothing less.

All my expectations fell down to reality.

Because what screws us up most in life is the picture in our head of how it is supposed to be.

And from experience, it's an image that will never happen.

Even if your the luckiest fucking girl in the world.

Your dreams will never happen.

It's not pessimistic.

It's the truth.

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Okay guys! So quick note don't ACTUALLY give up on your dreams, persevere and they will happen.

Don't compare yourself to others and the show offs you are surrounded by.

Just live your life and dream.

Every ones dreams will happen.

Chloe is just very unfortunate 😳😂

I will try to upload another chapter this weekend but it is my birthday weekend (my acc birthday is on Monday) but yeah enough of me-

Byeeee👋🏼