Looking down from heaven

What has the world come to

Leela's pov
So, this is what the world has come to?

My life is now a delusion.

A world made of fantasies.

Happiness is no longer the illusion.

My life is my new disease.

I don't want to wait more on fate.

I will decide where it all ends.

They claim to be full of anger-

But it is them who spread all the lies.

A smile, a laugh, a tear, a frown.

Happiness is a concept burned by my soul.

I live in the shadows. It helps my cries my covered with smiles.

Because I'm that girl forever feeling like her life is dying.

I'm that girl who always ends up with the bad ending in the story.

Accept, no one would mourn over me.

No one would shed a tear.

No one mourns the wicked.

No one lays a lily on their grave.

The wicked's lives are lonely.

The wicked cry alone.

The wicked die alone.

And I, Leela Honours, am a wicked bitch that does not deserve to live.

I Leela Honours, deserve to cry alone, die alone-

Die so I don't mess up anyone else's lives.

First Chloe
Next Max
After Lucas
Finally the world.

I'm a spoilt good for nothing whore.

I have darkness in me which is part of me and I would never be me without out it.

This world has grown unreliable, in which flowers sparkle and birds sing but everything is not as it appears.

I am not as I appear.

You get people wrong and there is a darkness within me.

One minute your walking along in long grass with the sun in your hair and the birds are singing.

And the next, you glimpsed darkness, an inescapable darkness that is me.

The darkness out there which was part of me, who ruined people's lives.

I sent the text.

And one stone creates many ripples.

And now I will be the stone sinking to the bottom of the ocean.

One day you realise that life isn't what you thought it would be.

One day you realise that life is what you want it to be.

It isn't...

All that great.

And you realise everything is wrong and fake. Plastic. Paper.

'We live in a paper town with paper people and everything is uglier up close'

That's what I kept on telling myself, before I did it.

That's what I kept on telling myself, before I jumped.

That's what I kept on telling myself, before I ended my life.

That's what I kept on telling myself.

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I would like you all to notice the word before 😏

It foreshadows something 😉