Louis' Depressed Girl

Twenty-Three: Elounor?

Dear Diary,

I guess they put you here for me to write in... So here I go. I should probably start from the beginning shouldn't I? Like when I first got bullied..? I guess. Okay.

So it started in 1st grade. I didn't really know anybody at the time. But a lot of kids seemed to like me. But the only girl I like to talk to was a small girl named Jenna. She had dark brown hair that she wore in braids everyday, and she had large, pink barbie glasses. A lot of the kids teased her, but she was nice. We actually became best friends... Up until 7th grade... When she lost the glasses, and fixed her hair, and wore makeup. While I wore old beat up clothes because my parents couldn't afford more. And I wasn't very skinny. So Jenna dumped me for the "cool kids" ad ever since then she made my life hell.

I remember one year I was in Gym class and I opened my locker and it was full of death threats... And in the corner, there was a small razor with a sticky note saying, "Here loser, go cut yourself." And I did it. Yeah, stupid I know. But it made everything better. But I soon realized that people thought I was fat. And I knew if I stopped eating I would grow thin. But I didn't know that I would lose some of my hair, make me constantly cold, stain my lips blue. I thought that I would be perfect then. But all of that made me weak. And pathetic if you ask me.

Yet the bullying got worse. I was the emo kid. The depressed kid. Yeah. I was "that kid." I felt like my world was coming to an end, literally.

I wish I could see Jenna now. To see if shes done being so cruel. If she actually matured... But probably not. I don't really know.

But everything wasn't bad. I had met Jack. He seemed so perfect. He told me that I was beautiful, and all he ever wanted. But what a liar. The scars were to ugly I guess. But I met Louis. Who I thought was my soul mate. But I was mistaken.

I thought that this depression thing would fade when I was with Louis, but it didn't... I learned that it just made me worse. Yet I knew Louis didn't mean it. What he did was wrong. But I know he had gone threw a lot.

I'm gonna forget that. Things are always fixable. Always.

I feel like Louis and I are a glass vase, and we fell into a thousand pieces. But why let the pieces stay there and leave a mess? Why not put in the effort and put them back together again?



I was about the write the next sentence but I was interrupted by a knock on the door.

"Mia, dinner time." An old women with raspy, strawberry blonde hair told me.

I nodded and set down my diary on the desk and went to the food hall.

I glanced around and saw plates lined up on a gray table in the back of the room and tons of girls sitting down and eating already.

I sighed and made my way to the food and grabbed a plate. The meal consisted of mashed potatoes with thick, brown gravy. A veggie burger oozing with ketchup and a glass of water. I looked at the meal disgusted.

I sat at an empty table and pushed my potatoes around with my plastic fork.

"You know the food is sopose to go in your mouth," A young, female voice laughed from behind me.

I turned around in my chair and saw a girl with long, brown hair making her way towards me.

"Hi, I'm Daniella." She greeted, setting her tray besides mine.

"Hi.." I mumble, setting my fork down.

"Oh," She nodded her head, seeing my facial expression towards my food.

I turn away to face away from her. I didn't want friends here.

"Anyways, I'm Daniella like I said before. And I'm a volunteer here." She told me, yet I really didn't care.

"I understand if you don't want to talk... But you might want to eat your food." She said, making me burst out in laughter.

"Yeah right." I huff.

"Its either that or add another week to your stay here. Plus, no visitors for 3 days." She sighed. "You only have to eat half your portion."

I picked up my fork and frowned at the food.

"Here, I'll join you." She insists, picking up her fork as well, shoving a large chunk of potatoes into her mouth. But I only placed a little in mine.

"Don't be scared to eat." She smiles. "What they are feeding you are quite healthy."

None of her words made me feel better. All I heard was the voice of Jenna in my head screaming, "Fat!"

I slowly picked up my fork and shoved small portions of the potatoes in my mouth, regretting every bite.

Lastly, I chewed away half of the veggie burger and sat it back down.

"Great!" She smiles, grabbing my plate and holding hers in her other hand.

"Thanks." I smile, warming up to her.

"After this we can go do something so you won't be so bored!" She tells me with excitement, heading towards the kitchen to drop off our dirty plates and silverware.

"Lets go for a walk yeah?" Daniella smiled, leading me outside.

"Its lovely out," I say admiring the peaceful view of talk rose bushes surrounding us and the warm welcoming warmth of the spring sunshine.

"It sure is." She smiles, looking around curiously.

"Mia!" A voice calls from the back door. "You have a visitor!"

"Already!?" I mumble. "Bring them out here."

Before I could look over at Daniella, I see that familiar brunette making his way towards me.

"Harry?" I ask.

"Hi Mia." He smiles, then looks over at Daniella.

"This is Daniella. My new friend." I smile, gesturing towards the cheerful girl besides me.

"Hi, I'm Ha-"

"Harry Styles I know." She smirks.

"How?" He says stunned.

"Well my dad works for a radio station and we play One Direction all the time. Plus, you are like the biggest boyband in the world."

I watch as Harry turns his face away in embarrassment, but looks over at me. Seriousness covering his once cheerful expression.

"Mia. I actually came here for a reason." Harry mumbles, looking quite uncomfortable.

"Uh, yeah. Wait. Please don't tell me Louis is upset. I don't want to hear it." I tell him.

"No, no, no. I mean. Its about Louis, yeah. But not like that." Harry explains.

"Look, I don't want to know then." I sigh.

"Mia listen to me." Harry pleads.

"I'll be going now Harry." I mutter, heading towards the buliding.

I feel a soft tug on my wrist. "Mia you don't understand. Eleanor is back, and she asked Louis for a second chance." And for once, I actually felt a jealousy overcome me.

"W-what!" I breathe, anger washing over me.

"She flew in today and demanded to have security escort her to our hotel." Harry explains in further detail.

"What did Louis do?" I whisper, almost not wanting to know.

"H-he hugged her. That was it. He pulled her aside and they talked for a while. Then she left. We all asked what happened. Yet, he refused to tell us." Harry tells me.

I nod my head slowly, "Harry before you leave... Could you do me a favor?"

"Of course Mia." Harry says.

"Tell Louis to visit me sometime. And let him know that I miss him. But make sure I want it to be a friendly visit, not a romantic one." I explain.

"Okay, see you later." He smiles, pulling me into a quick hug before heading out.

I glance over at Daniella who had wide eyes, "Wow."

"Yeah, tell me about it." I mutter.


A/N: Sorry this is so late! I really apologize. I've lost a lot of motivation. But I'm trying to build it up again. So I put a goal on this chapter! Reach it and another update will be on Sunday (:

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