Krystal's POV
Hanggang pag-uwi ko ay di ako tumigil kakaiyak. Heto na naman yung puso ko. Bumibigay na naman.Buong akala ko nakalimutan ko na. Umasa akong okay na ako. Hindi pala. Di parin naghihilom ang mga sugat kahit isang taon ng lumipas.
Di ko masisisi si Ate Cy if she still blame me for it. Mas gugustuhin kong magpakabitch siya in front of me than seeing her cry.
I hated it the most.
Chase. He was everything to me. I felt like I needed him kasi siya ang unang naging diyan para sakin. He bring out the best in me even if I didnt deserve having him in my life.
He was the sweetest person with most bitter memories sa buhay ko.
Sila ni Ate Cy ang buhay ko before Lauraine and Alexis was around.
Sila ang unang pumulot sakin.
Knowing that Cyril's parents are both dead and Chase is too. Naguilty ako kung ba't kailangan ko pang mabuhay.
I was nothing but a disaster and pain in the ass.
Here I am, hindi tumitigil kakaiyak. I heard someone knock at the door.
"Krystal" It was Alex.
I didnt want them to see me like this. "No, Alex. You have to go away." Bakas parin sa boses ko ang panginginig dahil sa pag-iyak ko.
"Krystal, you can't deal with this alone." Lauraine said while openning the door. They have some duplicates to my room.
Tears started rushing down my cheeks as they sat next to my bed. "You don't deserve to suffer with me, you know. I know I cause a lot of trouble and I feel guilty about it. For killing Chase and my family pushing Cyril's Dad to his limits. It's so pathetic. I feel so bad about myself." I cried out while Lauren was hugging me tightly and Alexis wiping tears off my face.
My voice was shaking and it got more harder to breathe.
Bakit kailangan kong mag-exist. Ang sama pa ng ugali ko. I want to run away and die.
"You have to heal."
"I can never" I replied as I smiled bitterly.
"You have to."
"I can't"
"But why Krystal?"
"Because I can't let myself heal while the people left behind is still suffering from the wound that I caused. I don't wanna run away anymore, I want to face it." With that, I stopped breathing.
I was rushed to the hospital.
And fell asleep.
"Is she okay?"
Sino yan? Ba't parang pamilyar?
"Yes tita."
Totoo ba to? Andyan ba talaga sila Mommy?
"Oh sweetie. Anong nangyari sa baby ko? Kawawa naman." I felt my Mother's embrace while her hands caressed my hair.
"That's it. She's going back to Korea"
Dad, no! Gusto kong idilat ang mata ko at hindi sumangayon sa daddy ko. But I can't. I'm too weak.
"Her heart grew more weaker."