Captured (One Direction Fanfic)

Chapter 32

*Marie's P.O.V*

I must've looked like a lost child who couldn't find their mother in a store. At least that's what I felt like.

I felt confused, lonely, and even disappointed in myself for letting it come to this, as I sat blubbering on my bed. I guess you could say I had officially cracked. I let my emotions take over my body and it was not good for anyone's sake.

I didn't care that the boys were probably still downstairs and could possibly hear me try to muffle my sobs.

I needed someone that I could just hug and cry into their shoulder without being judged or scolded in the process. I couldn't go to my own grandmother, since she already looks down upon me.

Now who was I going to go to? One Direction downstairs? For so long they've been the enemy in my eyes, that I can't just flip a switch and pour my feelings out in front of them. Well, more than I already have.

At times like these, I wished I had my parents by my side so much. When I'm forced to sit down and think in complete silence, I remember just how upset I really am that my parents are dead. I don't have a sibling or anyone I could go to.

I was practically all alone.

*Harry's P.O.V*

"Just great! What the hell are we supposed to do?!" Louis frustratedly pulled at his hair.

Usually he wasn't the one to ask for advice. I suppose the whole 'team work' talk is already being put into action.

"Not to sound cold or anything, but she did say to go get the money. Maybe we can get the money while it's still bright outside, and then go from there?" Zayn offered.

"You're right," Liam said. "That did sound cold."

I knew what I was about to say might sound ridiculous coming from the boy who almost raped her a mere week ago, but I feel like it's the right thing to do.

"We can't just leave her here. Marie doesn't have a mum or a dad or anyone that could comfort her in her time of need. Not even her own grandmother said bye to her before she left. We're the only ones here that could help her, and I know she's not going to just welcome us with open arms, but isn't it worth a try? Don't you even feel the least bit guilty?" I bit my lip, hoping I didn't sound too cheesy.

Everyone looked like they were considering what I had said, which made me a little relieved. At least I wasn't being ridiculed right now.

"Okay, I'll go talk to her and see if she's...emotionally stable," Louis said, concern evident in his voice.

"Um Louis?" Niall piped in.

"What?" Louis said, impatiently.

Niall looked startled before finally continuing with what he had to say.

"Just try to spare her feelings. She's not happy right now. No need to make it worse, yeah?" Niall unsurely smiled at Louis.

Louis looked back at Niall and nodded, before leaving the room and going up the stairs to find Marie.

*Louis's P.O.V*

I tried to piece together what I could possibly say to Marie, but my mind came to a complete blank as I reach her door. I decided against knocking, since I figured she would just decline my request to come in anyways.

Marie looked up at me with wide eyes and parted lips. She had tear stained cheeks, her hair was no longer in a ponytail, and she had finally gotten changed into a plain red cotton dress.

"Get out!" She cried, violently rubbing her eyes to get rid of the remaining tears.

"Please, just hear me out. All you have to do is listen," I pleaded.

She only looked at me, so I took this as an opportunity to sit down on the edge of her bed.

"No," she growled under her breath.

I put my hands up in defense and got off, deciding to just stand up next to the bed instead.

What do I say? Should I be nice and confess to her how I really have a guilty conscious? Or is it too late to just turn around and leave completely?

She stared at me, waiting for me to say something, so I decided to let the worlds roll off my tongue, and not think and just say.

"Listen, I'm...sorry. It was a real dick move of me to 'kidnap' you and treat you like shit. I know you're a spy, and I tried to abuse your abilities when I thought you could be used as bait. I disrespected you and your feelings and made your life ten times worse than it already was. I didn't realize how your parents died, and how you really felt about being a bad person. I'm a bad person too. If it helps, I'll admit that I'm fucking scared of Simon and try to put on this strong façade, but I only come off as a total jerk. I'm sorry if I ruined your chance of getting a normal job, or released the beast inside you, or ruined your life. If you think you should stop, I need to too. I have fans and I have people who call me their ROLE MODEL, but I've killed people, Marie. Who looks up to someone who really kills people and is secretly still afraid deep down inside? I'm afraid, okay? Afraid of not knowing what's going to happen next. Should I stand up to Simon? Should I stop doing this dirty work and stick to the band stuff? I don't know what to do and this is the first time I've ever said it," I huffed, surprising both Marie and even myself.

I hadn't realized just how unhappy I was until I said it out loud. I usually liked to just bottle up my emotions, not really thinking about or showing them, but in a strange way, I liked to get it out. I felt relieved. I felt as if a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders.

Marie looked speechless as she opened her mouth to say something, but then closed it.

I sighed loudly, and turned to leave. This was all too embarrassing. I didn't want to talk about my feelings to a girl who was just as crazy as me anymore. I said what I needed to say, and it felt good, but I don't need to wait for an answer. I apologized and that was that.

"Wait!" She stopped me.

I turned around, giving her an opportunity to say what she wanted to say.

"I miss my parents more than I ever have right now. I'm not capable of being loved, let alone by my own grandmother. I'm a monster. I don't like living this double life," she shook her head. "I think you should tell the rest of the boys what you told me. Save yourselves while you still can. I suppose we're all young. We have the rest of our lives to become better people. I mean, we do, don't we?"

I took her words into consideration.

If I told the boys, would that cause another fight between us? Or would they agree with me?

But, we ARE all young. Being the oldest and still in my early twenties, I have the rest of my life ahead of me. I shouldn't throw it all away now. None of us should.

"Yes, we have a long time to live," I nodded.

"Tell Simon to fuck off. What is he going to do? Kill you and ruin One Direction? He wouldn't ruin the own band he put together himself, now would he?" She cocked an eyebrow.

"Probably not," I said slowly. "I think I should stand up for myself, though. There's no point in me or any of the boys getting walked all over."

"Do it."

"I will," I said, confidently.

"Good, and I'll get a normal job and become a normal teenage girl," She smiled to herself.

"So you still need a job?"

"Yes, why?"

"Um, is there any possibility that you can actually do boys hair and makeup?" I said sheepishly, after a long while.

Marie's face drained of color.

"What do you mean?" She said slowly, like she was talking to someone very stupid.

Maybe she was after all.

"Like, could you do OUR hair and makeup?" I squeaked, wondering how long it was going to be until I started regretting my decision of asking her.

I'll give it 5 minutes-at the most.

"Don't you already have a hair stylist?" She said, doubtfully.

"Sure, but the more the merrier," I shrugged.

Oh my gosh.

Why would I just say something like that?!

And it hasn't even been 5 minutes yet...

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A/N:

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