bad liar | r5+selena gomez+panic! at the disco

38: Thinking Of You

Rikers been calling non stop. I've been ignoring the calls and texts and FaceTime calls but I just really wanna be with him right now. Why did i say those things? R5 are leaving tonight.

And so are the boys. I need to see him. But he hates me. I called Rydel and she asked me to come over. So I did. She let me in and didn't tell Riker I was coming. We went to her room and she let me bawl my eyes out and rant about Riker. She is such a good friend for listening to me the whole way. Then the door opened...and he came in. I pretended to be on my phone.

"Rydel were you crying?" He asks.
"Why do you care?" She says. I look up.
"Rydel I'm sorry please don't act like this!" He says looking at the floor.
"It's not me you should be apologising to" she says. She pushed past him and went into Ross's room slamming the door. Before Riker could say anything to me I ran to the room and went inside. Ross and Rydel were talking.

"Delly are you okay?" I ask her.
"I'm pissed with Riker!" She says.
"Why? Is it because of me?" I ask.
"He won't apologise to you. When we were hanging at the pool the other day he was being a douche bag" she says.
"What did he say?" I ask. They kept quiet. "Guys...?" I say. Silence.
"Tell me or... wait forget it. Just tell me!" I say. Rydel spoke up.
"Well it went like this...

I heard crying from upstairs. We all looked up at Rikers bedroom.
"You know Selenas never cried over a boy" Rocky said.
"Your the first boy she knew she loved and the first she's cried over" Ross added.
"It doesn't make a difference" he said.
"It does! She is in your bedroom crying her heart out and you don't care! Whenever it's you she would cuddle you and kiss you and do whatever! Man up for god sake and comfort her!" I yelled He rolled his eyes. pushed him into the pool and ran inside." She says.

"So basically he doesn't care?" I say.
Ross bit his lip "well... sort of"
then the door opened and Riker looked angry. "Rydel, Ross out!" He says.
"It's my room!" Ross whined.

"OUT!" They got scared and ran out. I followed them but he pulled me back.
He shut the door and turned to me.
"What's the big idea!? You scared them!" I scold him.
"Why do you think I don't love you? I do! I made the biggest mistake ever hurting you like that!"
"Can you stop yelling I'm right here"
I say. He immediately stopped.
"Why do you hate me?" He asks.
"I could ask you the same" I say.
"And by the way no" I added.
"I don't hate you either but we can't keep arguing like this" he says.

"I know it's stupid" I agree. Like me I said in my head.
"I know what your thinking" he said.
"What am I thinking?" I ask.
"Your thinking bad of yourself"
"God just because I'm depressed doesn't mean I'm always gonna hate myself!" I sigh.
"Well I'm sick of it!" He says.
"If you can't accept the way I am then maybe we shouldn't even talk" I say.

"That's it. I never wanna see you again" he growls. I shrug.
"Fine by me but you'll never see that baby either" I say.
"I don't care I never wanted one anyway"
"I don't give a fuck" I reply.

What just happened? I made my way back to Rydels room.
"What happened?" The two confused blondes asked.
"Well he said he didn't want the baby,"

Their eyes widened.
"What?" I say.
"He did that to you!?" Ross exclaimed.
"Yeah" I said sitting down beside Rydel. They stood up and started yelling. "MOM DAD!"

"Shush!" I hiss. They went downstairs and I followed. They told them. I did my best not to look. Oh god now what?
"Did Riker do that?" Stormie asked.
I nodded slowly looking down. "I dont care though!" i said.
"Well i do. He got you pregnant, he's helping you" she marched upstairs with Ross and Del. So i fucking LEFT/

We're over I type. It felt wrong yet right. I looked at my calendar. Only
Four and a half months left. But how will the baby and I cope? She'll have no Dad...