I want Riker. I rang him. He didn't pick up. I texted him. He didn't reply. I tried Skype. Nothing. He stopped calling me.
I would comment on his Instagram photos saying that I loved him. I've been thinking. I don't love him. I don't need him. Rydel calls me everyday and everyone else had a normal bond with me. Texts, calls that's it. Nothing from Riker. He really doesn't care! All this time I thought he was rare.
A rare guy. You can't easily find guys who are sweet, adorable, sensitive, dorky, cute... amazing. Like Riker. Im wrong: I love him but I can't admit to it.
•RIKER POV• Don't you love acting? Acting on stage. For TV, movies, plays. And in real life. Acting like your ok. Acting like your not missing anything. Acting like you don't care. Acting like you don't love them. Deep down inside your not ok. Your missing something. You care. You love them. Deep down inside you know it. But you just can't admit to it. They want you back but you can't admit it. You want them back to. But your scared. Your worried. They could be lying like you are about yourself. You keep secrets. You can't take it anymore. You might self harm. You cry. Your confused. You can't stop thinking about the person you love.
"Riker it's time to get up!" I got up and went to the shower. The cuts were fading away. But I knew they'd be back. What have I done? To myself and to her? Who am I? Then my phone buzzed.
Babe💕: I know exactly what your up to. You need to stop.
There was a photo attached to it. Me and Rocky had taken a selfie. And the cuts were not that visible. But she knows depression when she sees it. She knows when someone's self harming. She knows when someone's in pain. She knows when she's needed and wanted. That's why I love her. But I made a mistake which I can't take back. I just hope she comes back to me. I didnt even reply. Im hopeless.
Both my babies. I start crying. Girls aren't the only ones with secrets...
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Selena/
Beautiful, Happy Hot, Pretty, Cute, Adorable, Sexy, Flawless, Amazing, Awesome, Loved, Royal, Princessy... I love you ok! Just come back to me.
WHY IS LOVE SO HARD!?
I started bawling my eyes out. No one found me. Like I said. Just fake a smile. No one would know, Unless she was here.
This chapter was kind of deep. And weird. I can't focus properly. Sorry guys. Please no pressure: and no I don't wanna talk. Xx
