No Happy Ending

Almost Gone

      That Night I slept in the guest room. I guess the last kid they fostered was a nine year old because the room was pink and their were dolls everywhere. I could have sworn the night before these people were so nice and the next day all of it changed.

   "Get the hell up you lazy piece of shit." Michael said pouring freezing cold water on my head.

    "What the fuck! What are you doing!" I yelled sitting up.

    "It might be Saturday but you have work to do." He said walking away. "Get down stairs in two minuets."He yelled down the hall. I was confused, I thought Lidia was asleep and he was just mad but when I got down stairs Lidia was yelling at me too. 

   "Okay listen just so you don't get any ideas, no going out after 7, no boys over after 6 ,no friends over period after 8 and you are to be in this house before 7:30 and 8:30 on weekends. Are we clear?" She asked me throwing some money at me. I nodded and I looked confused.

   "Not get ya nasty ass up and take a shower and go to the store. And if you not back in an hour we gonna have a problem." I left the money on the table and took a shower and i got what was left of my clothes. I took my phone and the money and as I went out the door Lidia through a shoe at me because apparently I wasn't moving fast enough.  The supermarket was two blocks away and Hayes's house wasn't too far from there and Hayes's  house was 3 blocks away so I called him and went there. Ethan was there and I tried to talk to him but he didn't say much. I felt bad for him. Almost his entire family was gone.

   "Hey are you okay?" Hayes asked.

  "I'm fine." I said sitting on the couch next to him. Ethan was sitting at the piano that was in front of the window across the room. I could feel his depression and pain and I was kinda giving some off too. But he needed someone and to this day I feel  like I should have been there but I was too selfish. "I just miss Tiara. I guess." I muttered. I guess Ethan heard me because he got up and left. Hayes asked him what was wrong but he didn't answer and went home. About five minutes pass and me and Hayes were silent. Neither of us moved, honestly I was afraid to. I felt like if I moved I would explode and all my thoughts would poor out of me. Then i realized that I still had to go to the store.

  I got up and walked toward the door and Hayes followed me.

   "I gotta go to the store. But I might come back later." I said. I was looking at the ground the whole time because every time I do I fall in love with him again.

  "But can we talk about 'us' for a second?" He said grabbing my hand. "I mean what are we?"I let go of his hand and gave him a hug.

    "Hayes I love you but I can't and you know I can't. I wanna have you forever."I said in his ear.

    "If you wanna have me forever then--"

     "I can't Hayes." I said about to cry. I let go of him and left and I walked out with tears half down my face. I got the stuff but I think it took over a hour but when I got In Lidia and Michael didn't say anything. They made me clean the whole house before I could go back to Hayes' house. 

      Michael kept yelling gay slurs at me even though I don't swing that way. He was just like my Father. I just hope he didn't act like him at night.

        It was about 5:30 when I finished and I only had 3 hours with Hayes but I could use it after all we've been through. I missed Hayes but I can't keep having him get hurt to be with me. Honestly I don't even know why he loves me so much. He's been doing more for me then I have for him. I would expect him to hate me, kinda like Jack.

  I kept saying I knew I would never have him forever.

  I was just hoping I wasn't right.

  But I was.