I write to you because...

Chapter four pt.2

Chapter four Pt.2

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"Hey, are you gonna wake up?" someone murmurs, shaking my shoulder.

"Louis?" I mumble, rubbing my eyes. Once they focus, I find a girl peering down at me with fresh tears in her eyes as she moves uncomfortably.

"No honey, um, Louis, Louis isn't here, I'm Bree," She whispers, pulling her big coat closer, giving me a sad smile.

My heart broke.

My whole chest deflated, my eyes instantly widening and filling with tears.

I'd thought he was finally answering me.

She bites her lip, looking around, before sighing. And hugging my head, before lifting me up off her lap.

"Let's get you home, its late," she says rubbing my shoulder.

Giving one last look at his gravestone, I copied her actions, kissing my hand and touching the top softly before turning and following her.

Please rest in piece my angel, I'll be back, I promise.

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"This is my apartment, you're welcome to stay." She says, rubbing my shoulder making me jump. I nodded in answer, mumbling, 'That's very kind of you,' before she leads me a big sofa.

"My boy friend will be home later, he's working a late shift so we can just eat now, anything particular that you want?" She asks with a small smile that I return with a struggle.

"I happy with whatever thank you," I say but it comes out as a whisper,I frown at myself making her sigh and rub my shoulder.

"It gets easier," She comforts but I shake my head, putting my head in my hands.

"Not this time," I whisper, sitting up again with tears filling my eyes, "Its been two months, and i still see him in that bathtu-" I gasp, my chest feeling tight.

"I'm sorry, i cant," I say with a shaky voice, "thank you so much but i cant stay im sorry,"

I ran from the apartment, leaving her there stunned.

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' There is an 85% chance that the person you dream about is dreaming about you as well.

Do you dream about me too? In your grave, dreaming about me. That thought makes it easier. Are you smiling? I hope so.

I dream about you. I never stop, you're always there.

Remember that day we announced we wanted to be together? The boys looked so shocked, but then they hugged us, telling us how happy they were for us. I remember that day as if it was yesterday. Your smile when those words left your lips.

'Me and Harry want to be together officially,'

It still makes my heart race, just thinking about it. After you'd said it, you smiled at me, noticing the boys confusion and kissing me. It was sweet, a light kiss that made me weak at the knees.

Their faces turned to shock when they saw the seriousness behind it, before we knew it they were hugging us, congratulating us.

The things you did to me couldn't be healthy. My heart always sped up when I saw you, when you spoke, when you were mentioned on the radio, whenever I caught myself thinking about you. It just jumped, beating ten times faster than it should, my mind would whirl, my knees would tremble.

You literally made me weak at the knees.

Remember that day management told us we couldn't be together? My heart didn't speed up at the mention of you. It stopped.