Dolan Bullies

Bumpy Road

de·pres·sion

/dəˈpreSH(ə)n/

noun

: a state of feeling sad.

: a serious medical condition in which a person feels very sad, hopeless, and unimportant and often is unable to live in a normal way.

ASPEN'S POV.

The more I thought about my relationship with Grayson the more I realized how insane this was.

This never used to be how things were, I was the one he bullied along with Ethan, Mackenzie would protect me and take me away before they could hurt me anymore.

Everything's changed.

I laid on my bed, staring at the ceiling as if it would tell me what to do and how do run my life.

Ever since the time I got home from the hospital, it hasn't been the same.

I hadn't seen Grayson or Ethan in a while, the occasional hello's or hi but that was it, nothing more, as for Mackenzie, she tried to play it off as if she never did anything.

The more time I spent alone the more my thoughts got to me, it was true, Grayson didn't need me, he shows that by basically ignoring me.

I don't know what I did wrong either, that's the worst part, nobody is telling me anything, I'm just being ignored.

I got up, checking the clock to see that it was around three am.

Tears slipped down my cheeks, I just wanted to be happy and Grayson was the one that made me feel happy, but now I'm not even sure if I have him anymore.

I shakily brought my phone up to my ear, listening to the phone ring, praying he'd pick up.

"Hello?" His voice traveled throughout the room, making my heart stop.

"Hey.. how come I haven't seen you much?" I questioned quietly, playing with the hem of my shirt nervously.

"I've been busy." He huffed, sounding annoyed at my comment making a tear slip down my cheek.

"I haven't seen you all week Grayson.. are you avoiding me?" I squeaked out, unsure if he could sense my weakening state.

I heard him speaking to someone in the background, then laugh before he came back on the phone.

"Of course I am, who would want to be around a freak like you?" He laughed, making my heart drop and my breathing to stop.

I knew it was too good to be true, why would anyone like me anyways right?

"You don't mean that.." I choked out, wiping my cheek with the back of my palm.

"Grayson come on, we're about to play truth or dare and Mackenzie looks so fucking hot!" I heard a guy yell in the background, making my whole body freeze.

He rather be with her than me, so much for him ending whatever went on between them.

"Goodbye Grayson." I whispered, another tear slipping from my eye.

"Wait Aspen-" He spoke, as if he just realized what he was doing, but it was too late, I hung up the phone, just sitting there trying to process everything that just happened.

It was in that moment that I realized I was never wanted, Kian left me to travel to California with Jc, mom and dad are never around much because of their jobs, Mackenzie is just a back stabbing bitch with no life, and Grayson and Ethan never quit being who they used to be, my bullies.

I got up from my bed, grabbing the all too familiar car keys before sneaking out of my window, down to the driveway.

If nobody cared about me, then they shouldn't care that I won't be around anymore right?

I turned on the radio, the song Never Forget You playing throughout the vehicle, somehow it seemed extremely relatable to my current situation.

I hummed a few lyrics as I drove down the street, stopping in front of Grayson's house as I saw people laughing and drinking inside the house.

I used to be so happy

But without you here I feel so low

I watched you as you left but I can never seem to let you go

'Cause once upon a time you were my everything

It's clear to see that time hasn't changed a thing

It's buried deep inside me but I feel there's something you should know

I'll never forget you

You'll always be by my side

From the day that I met you

I knew that I would love you 'till the day I die

And I will never want much more

And in my heart I will always be sure

I will never forget you

And you will always be by my side 'till the day I die

I sighed, taking one last glance at the house before continuing down the road.

I heard my phone ringing, glancing down at it I realized it was Ethan calling me.

I accepted the call, putting the phone on speaker so I could focus on the road.

"Where the hell are you?" He yelled through the phone, as I stared blankly at the road ahead of me.

"Out." I replied with no emotion that scared myself.

"Grayson's freaking out saying you said goodbye then hung up." He replied, sounding worried as I sighed, turning to the all too familiar road.

"That's because I did. Grayson doesn't need me Ethan, he said so himself. He's got Mackenzie." I replied bitterly.

"Aspen you know Grayson didn't mean it, you mean so much to him." Ethan rushed his words out, making me roll my eyes.

"Then where is he huh?" I cried out, slamming the car door before walking on the cool grass beneath my feet.

"Aspen don't do this please." Ethan begged, only making me cry harder as I sat on the edge of the cliff, the water crashing against the rocks on the bottom.

I heard him rushing to someone in the background, guessing it was Grayson.

I heard what sounded like a car being started, making my eyes widen as I realized they were coming for me.

"Aspen just stay put okay, don't move." Ethan tried to calm me, as I sighed, standing up and looking down at the water below.

"This is what everyone needs." I replied, looking around and smiling sadly at the good memories I had.

I hung up the phone, dropping it on the ground beside me, as I was about to step off the edge, I heard a car screech into the grass.

"Aspen no!" I heard someone yell.

I turned around to see Grayson and Ethan running towards me.

I couldn't let them save me, not again, not after everything I've been through.

I shook my head, tears falling down my face as I took a step backwards, falling off the edge, the only sounds I heard were from the two boys above screaming my name.

That was the end.

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