Although I didn't know you as well, I feel the loss deeply.
Rafael, your children love you dearly and they miss you immensely.
I know they feel lost because you are no longer with them.
I also know; you are with them always, in every basketball game, every baseball game and every soccer game you will never leave their side.
I do get angry because you left them ! You were still alive an walking and you walked right out of their lives like they were a pile of dirt.
All this anger, that we have, isn't gonna bring you back. The fact that you could still be alive if you had never walked out that door.
They now have a guardian angel. You. I have no right to write this or to feel the pain like my brothers do. I barely got the chance to get to know you.
When I saw you in the coffin, I made a promise; To protect and take care of your boys.
I try and try and try, I really do.
They love you and miss you. Tell me dad why did you leave and walk out?!
I know you want the best for all of them, and I Don't want them to make the same mistakes you made.
I help Jack, in whatever way I can. But dad, I'm not enough, they say time heals all wounds. Is it true? Did they not cross your mind one bit.
We get lost a lot I'm not gonna lie, we always find each other and we never stop fighting.
I will take care of them, I promise Dad, your grandkids will know you.
i miss you and i know i'm not suppose to, why did you leave. you could have been with the boys in their tournament, and at nationals. i'm so mad at you, and you don't even know me because you left so early from our lives. Were you that eager to leave with another woman? Tell me, how do you sleep at night knowing your kids stayed up all night waiting for dad to return? We miss you, so much. We think about you, all the time. We are hurting, we will always be hurting until we see you again in Heaven dad... God said, "Come as you are," will he still want us even if we're broken? "earth has no sorrow that heaven can't cure." is it true? we are all wanderers, we want to go home.
