The Secret

Chapter 20

They say if you love something then let it go and if it comes back then it's meant to be. Or something. But I didn't love the situation I was in and I let it go. It wasn't suppose to come back. But it did.

It's been a week since I made the decision to return back to my normal life. I told Ryder to ignore all the calls that came except for Grace. During the week, there was nothing but dinners and fun with Ryder and Veronica. I didn't want to join but they insisted. They didn't want me home all alone. I didn't mind their relationship but I learned that Veronica was a little motherly and I wasn't looking for another mother. It was easy returning to my normal life outside of school but inside was a different story. 

I continued to sit in the back of class as I usually did. That part was easy because Rebecca has been missing for the week. Yes missing. Her parents didn't know where she was and neither did anyone else. I wasn't that sad. It's not like we were friends or anything but I did find myself missing her. Only a little. She was the reason why I was in this mess in the first place. But sometimes I wonder if she didn't say anything to me in the bathroom, would I have bumped into Daniel in the halls?

Speaking of Daniel, avoiding him was the hardest of them all. I think he got over the fact that I used him. Plus I did ask his father to talk to him a while ago. He kept trying to get me alone so we could talk. That couldn't happen. The only thing I did like was Jada didin't try to talk to me. Everything between me and her went back to normal.

"Aura, you're always zoining me out now. Do I not mean nothing anymore?" Grace asked feigning hurt. We were in the cafeteria and I was forced to watch her eat. I finished me home made lunch a couple minutes ago. 

"You never meant anything Grace," I joked and she punched my arm lightly. I was so happy that I at least had Grace. 

"Ouch. I really felt that," Grace said before scooping macaroni and cheese into her mouth. "So how are the two lovely dovey birds?"

"Fantastic actually. I didn't think my brother would actually last this long."

"He would last longer if he realized that the person he's suppose to be with is me," she said and I laughed. Sometimes I really did wonder if Grace has a crush Ryder. 

"Sure Grace, whatever you say. Can I sleep over tonight? Ryder's having Veronica over tonight and I really don't want to be there," I said and she shook her head sadly. I haven't been over to her house in a while and I really missed the place.

"No can do Aura. I'm going out with the parents tonight. You can come over but you'll be the only one over there."

"Ughh fine," I said before angrily shoving the cookie I bought into my mouth. I wasn't angry at her, I was angry because I would have to sit uncomfortably in my room while Ryder and Veronica go at it. Disgusting.

"I need to pee. I'll be right back," Grace suddenly said and stood up. She moved quickly through the crowded cafeteria and disappeared through the double doors. 

So now I was all alone at an empty table. I looked at the different crowds of loud people and smiled. This was where I belonged. Not where ever I was before. 

Daniel sat across from me where Grace was suppose to be. His tray was identical to Grace's and he frowned at me. Just ignore him Aura and he will go away. If only that worked. 

"Hi," he greeted but I didn't say anything. He wasn't part of the life I wanted anymore. As sad as it was, I couldn't associate myself with him. 

"So you're not going to talk to me?" he asked, his frown deepening. 

"I thought avoiding you was enough proof that I don't want to talk to you. I just don't belong in that crazy world and I'm taking myself out. Now if you don't mind, I'm trying to be normal and you're really not helping with that."