I Want

Chapter 21

Me and Niall were laughing when Harry came back. He gave me my drink. I gave him a weak thank you and continued listening the story Niall was telling me.

"Oh, my god. I can't believe that happened!" I laughed so hard that my stomach started hurting. "Niall, sometimes I worry about you"

The light dimmed again and everyone got quiet. We were now to the categories where I'm nominated in. I was watching the performers and the winners from my seat. Then it was time for the first category I'm in.

Best Song of the Summer.

The artists in the same category as me are 5 Seconds of Summer She's Kinda Hot, Taylor Swift Bad Blood, The Weeknd Can't Feel My Face, OMI Cheerleader, Fifth Harmony Worth It, Silentó Watch Me (Whip/ Nae Nae), Major Lazer Lean On, Fetty Wap My Way, and Justin Bieber and Jack Ü Where Are Ü Now. My song Shower. I'm really nervous because all these artists are amazing. These song are so catchy and amazing that I probably have a chance of slim to none of winning against these great artists. Although on of these artist, I don't really like.

"The moonman goes to" They try opening the card to read who the winner is. Once the card is open, they say "Justin Bieber and Jack U!" I was slightly disappointed that I didn't win but I have two more categories left. I end up rollin my eyes once I see Justin.

Dickwad.

They tell their speech and walk off the stage. My phone vibrates in my purse and I go to pull it out. It was a text message. The name read Justin. I furrow my eyebrows in confusion.

Why would Justin text me? I was hesitant to see what the text was about.

Justin: Wounded you didn't clap for me or congratulate me. I thought I meant something to you :(

I snorted and started typing.

Me: As a friend, yeah. Never romantically.

Justin: Never Say Never

I rolled my eyes but a small smile appeared on my face.

Me: You little fucktard! Don't use your own song title!

Justin: ;)

I shake my head and put my phone away. I feel someone staring at me. I look and see Harry staring at me. More like glaring at my phone. I shoot him a confused look and he shakes his head then focuses on the show. Normally I wouldn't be that bored at awards shows but for some unknown reason, I'm really bored and want to go home. Although I can't because I'm nominated for two more awards and I want to win so badly.

I turned my focus back on the person talking and another performance was about to start. They announce that Coldplay was perform. I silently groaned. Don't get me wrong, they're great and all but I just personally like their music. Maybe like one song only. But whatever.

"I'm gonna get fresh air, wanna come?" I say to Harry as I leaned over the arm rest. He turns his head to me and look in my eyes.

I stare into the eyes that had me weak to he knees, the eyes that are so beautiful that it overlooks my brown eyes, the eyes that made me fall in love with the person surrounding it. His beautiful yet intimidating emerald eyes stare at me as I seem to have lost my hearing and voice.

I hadn't realized that he had answered until he cupped my cheek. "Huh?" I snapped out of my daydreams and into reality.

"I said, let's go get fresh air then" He responded with a small smirk on his face. He clearly knew that I was daydreaming about his eyes.

But I mean, who wouldn't. I know you would.

We both get up and head outside. There's barely anyone outside due to obvious reasons. We talk around but stay near the award ceremony. I see a garden not to far away.

"I see a garden over there, come on" I say as I grab Harry's hand and lead him to where the garden is.

When we reach the garden, I unlock the gate and we head inside. We continued to walk until we find a bench. Harry starts pulling me in a different direction and we sit down on a bench he found. We sit like this. In silence. For a few minutes, until he says something.

"You know, I never stopped thinking about you. Even after we broke up, you were still in my mind all day" He said calmly. I didn't bother to look at him. Mainly because my thoughts went back to when we slept with other girls after out break up.

Maybe now, I can get an explanation for the reason he was seen with different girls.

"Yet, that wasn't enough. You still hooked up with other girls after you left. While I was in my bedroom crying myself to sleep, you were out with a new girl constantly. How do you expect me to believe that you thought about me every fucking day?" I told him. I was glaring at the tree that was in my eye sight.

Just thinking of him with other girls, pisses me off. We may not be dating but I still love him. That still doesn't give me the right to get angry at him. I cheated on him. I let a different boy touch me in places where only Harry was suppose to touch me. He was in more pain.

"I don't expect you to believe me. Those girls mean nothing to me. I know every one says that but it's true. They were only there to help me forget the fact that my girlfriend, of two years, cheated on me. I was heartbroken, Nicole" I looked up at him and saw a tear slide down his cheek. Even after knowing for a few months, it still hurts him.

"You know I regret it. I always will. My intention wasn't to hurt you. You know how much I care about you. Thinking back to it, I should've gone home instead of going to the stupid club. None of this would've happened. It's all my fault. All because I couldn't keep my fucking legs closed" I was crying silently. His arm pulled me closer to him and gave me comfort.

I stayed in his arms like this. Trying to calm down. Trying to forget the pain. He's honestly too good for me. What did I ever do to deserve him? I'm a spoiled brat. He would be better off without me but that problem with that is that I'm too selfish to let anyone else have him. I don't want any other girl to feel his kisses or feel his touch.

"But the thing is I did know you never meant to do it. I was hurt to even think about that" He whispered but I heard him clearly.

He placed his fingers under my chin and made me look at him. He stared at me with love and adoration. Something that I never get tired of seeing in his eyes. After everything that happened, he still looks at me the same way he did when we first began dating. He inched closer and closer. The closer he got, the faster my heart was beating. He got close to the point where the tip of his lips touched mine.

A cliché as this is, sparks were everywhere. I could hold back anymore. I closed that gap that was left. All our worries went away as soon as I kissed him.

This felt right. He felt right.

He knew how to make me feel better. Maybe he's ready to give us a chance to start over again. Maybe we can become Harry and Nicole. The power couple.

All I wanted was him. Yes, I like getting everything that I wanted. But this is something that I might never get again if I fucked up again.

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Holy fuck!

It took almost 10 months for me to update.

Shit.

Anyways.....this chapter was slightly longer than any of the other ones. By a few more words. Harry and Nicole got a bit personal there. The ending of the chapter may sound like the story is ending but I can assure you, that will not be happening.

You guys can't get rid of me that easily. >:)

Love ya, Ash