I'm Broken (Book 4)

Chapter 17

[Adam's POV]

It gets kind of boring down here after a few days. Yeah, we have food. Yeah, we have a tv. Yeah, we have a pretty damn comfortable chair/couch/thingy. Yeah, we have each other...

But it just doesn't feel right, I just don't have the motivation to do things anymore. I barely have the motivation to write these journals anymore...

I sighed, getting up on my feet and padding over to the food bar. Food wasn't appealing anymore, I never seemed hungry, I never felt like I wanted anything anymore. I felt like I could just... stop, and everything would be fine. It was all lie a hazy dream, I had that tingly feeling you get when your foot falls asleep, you know that one? That tingly feeling seemed to accompany me everywhere I went, it was just plain unpleasant.

I went back to the chair I was sitting in and plopped back down, everyone else was asleep. I was just trudging through my everyday life now, stuck down here. Day by day goes by and I'm just dragged with it, though it would be great if everything just stopped. No, I didn't want to die, I'm not suicidal or anything of the sort, I just wanted to stop.

I didn't feel like watching TV, or falling asleep. I didn't feel like being awake, either. Nothing felt right, nothing was appealing at this particular moment in time. I got up again, maybe getting some exercise around the room would help lift my spirits... or whatever this was I was feeling. If I was feeling.

My entire body grew heavy and the will to move was suddenly lost, I dropped back down to the bean bag type thing I was in before, closing my eyes. Maybe sleep was the answer...

A/N

Ahh! I'm so so super sorry for the missing update last week, I was busy with school stuff and it completely slipped my mind to update!

Good news is I'm on Spring Break! (Ty's screeching echoes in the distance) So do expect at least one more update this week! ^^