Letters For You [Rewritten]: BTOB Sungjae

Chapter 10

Chapter 10
Pain

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Taeyoon and I didn't talk about it but we were seeing each other and it's been a week, and Minwoo was not talking to me. He sat so far from me in the classes that we have together and he was very good at avoiding me in the campus. Kyungdo was torn in two.

I still haven't apologized to Reshmi. I know that one day it's going to be too late, but apologizing is one of the hardest things I've ever known. I wanted to apologize to Minwoo too, but for what? How would those apologies sound like? I'm sorry for being a privileged brat who's been treating you like dirt, Reshmi. I just don't know how to deal with people. OrㅡI'm sorry for dating your ex, Minwoo. But she wrote me those letters and it felt like we had a connection.

But the connection we had during those anonymous times seem to be fading, or it was as though it's never there at all.

I wanted to feel that connection again now that I know her, that I get to spend time with her but every day since that first lunch we had felt dull.

Taeyoon was gorgeous, no doubt. Maybe it's why Minwoo went crazy over her during the time they were dating. But she would hold my hand out of nowhere, text me from the moment I wake up to the moment I close my eyes but it didn't excite me in a way I thought I would be.

She never talked about the letters even though they've started coming to me again after some time.

Minwoo said Taeyoon was not the kind of girl to do those things but why did all the puzzle pieces connect except for how I feel?

While I was in a lecture, I spotted Taeyoon by the door. She waved at me and smiled. I could see Minwoo turned and glanced at me. It was a pain to even smile at Taeyoon because I knew I might be hurting my friend.

And then I saw her leave before my class even finished.

After class, Kyungdo told me he's got somewhere to go. I watched longingly at Minwoo who immediately went the opposite direction.

With a sigh, I went to my locker and took the sticky note on it saying: sorry! had to go. ughhh. tutor time. see u later tonight? ;) ㅡTaeyoonie♥

And then there was the other letter she usually sent.

Hi, Sungjae!
I just heard you're joining the upcoming student musical competition this year? I also heard it's a fundraising for students who are having a hard time with tuition fees. I really admire you for being a part of this. I'm sure it would mean so much to students who need every single penny just to take one step forward to their goals and dreams.

Not to be creepy but I've heard you singing a few times from the music room. I think one of the best feelings in the world is being speechless by listening to someone singㅡand I felt that with your voice, how you sing with so much soul.

I'll always be cheering for you from the side. I wish you nothing but the best things to happen in your life. Also, I wrote this to say that this is going to be my last letter. I'm finally letting you go. And I hope you're happy.

T.Y.

Confusion flooded my head after reading the letter. When I looked up, I almost jumped when I found Minwoo standing beside me. “You scared me!” I exclaimed, forgetting for a moment that there was a rift in our friendship.