One Day Human, Werewolf the Next.

Chapter 13 - Funerals

As soon as I opened my eyes the next morning, my heart sank down to my stomach.

 Today was a triple funeral.

 For people who died for me.

 I couldn't cry right now, because all my tears had been used all week. 

I got up from the ground, where I had stayed for the past few days. People have tried coming into my room, and talking me out of it. But I couldn't listen to anyone now. Last time I listened to someone, it killed them. If only I had stayed and fought with Henry.

I picked out the darkest clothes in my closet. I had a black dress, a black lacy sweater, and a dark blue rhinestone necklace. As I started combing my hair, I looked at my face in the mirror, and cringed.

Numerous tear streaks covered my cheeks, and runny mascara sat below my eyes, which were all red and puffy. I could barely see my eyelids. I hadn't taken a shower in a few days. Maybe it was time for one.

I sniffed, and stepped into the warm water, as it welcomed me like a hug.

I haven't had one of those in a while.

I stood in the shower for god knows how much time. When I came out, I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked better, but there was still room for improvement.

I slowly put my clothes on, and brushed my hair, which had gotten even more tangled in the shower. I snapped my necklace on, and applied some mascara onto my eyes, but dropped it onto the floor as soon as it reached my eye lash.

Why was I getting pretty, while these people suffered for me??

I fell down to the ground, and gasped. I can't believe it.. Why was this happening?

" Alli? Come out now. It's- It's time to go."

My mother.She had come to my door everyday, and tried to get in. But I couldn't talk to her. She reminded me of him.

I sighed, sniffled, and slowly walked to the door. I opened it, and there stood the one I had not seen in almost two weeks.

My mother.

She held her arms out, and I flew right into them. She patted me on the ack, as small tears leaked onto her black shawl. I came out of her bear hug, and she lookd at me with sad eyes.

"Why me mom? Why not someone else, like Tamara? Or-or Connor?"

She sighed, and grabbed my hand.

"Hun, you need to know everything happens for a reason."

"That reason is me. Everything happens BECAUSE of ME!!"

" Allison. STOP."

A waterfall of tears cascaded down my cheeks now.

"NO WONDER CONNOR LEFT ME!! EVERYTHING IS HAPPENING BECAUSE OF ME MOM!!!"

"HEY!! STOP IT RIGHT NOW. Young lady, you are the future of everyone's children and grand children. If you don't survive, then NO ONE will. People aren't fighting because it's you. They're also fighting for their families. And it's NOT your fault. No one should be blamed for something that happens like that. Connor is stupid for leaving an amazing girl like you, you're so unique. And if he can't handle that, then maybe he just isn't worth it."

"But.. He's my mate."

" Do you really think he is your mate?"

I couldn't answer that. Was he really my mate/ i felt his love for a few days, maybe a week, and then everything changed. He has ignored me. Is he really worth it?