Wild is the Wind

Time

Brief mentions of Self Harm. :( but necessary bc Dean My poor baby gay child. So much.

Thanks for reading and your comments keep me going.

Castiel

"So I guess I'll call you?"

Dean smiled from his 'baby' which was parked in front of my home.

"Umm-yes... Yeah do that." I spoke in human English thank goodness.

It was like midnight so I crept to the door, and took one last glance as the car pulled away.

"You get some ass?"

Anna.

I turned to see my sister in the doorway smiling brightly holding her new baby.

"I- umm. No." I sputtered out.

"Oh? Did you want to?" She asked wiggling her eyebrows.

I gasped at that and blushed very hard unfortunately, not being able to utter an answer.

"You did!" She exclaimed.

"N-no I did not."

"Whatever bee, but I know the truth. That guy is a sex-god."

" How inappropriate of you to say something like that." I mumbled rolling my eyes. She just laughed and sat down on the couch.

"I put on coffee if you are interested." Anna pointed to the kitchen. I walked and shortly came back with two cups.

Mine black, hers full of cream and a little sugar.

I sat down on the love seat across from her and curled up. "New baby huh? How is that going?"

"Oh, well Bri is a handful and she constantly eats, but Gabe absolutely loves her, and Mom is pretty happy. Dad is a little awkward with her but he wasn't really good with any of us."

She took a drink of coffee and smiled a little. "So what ended the whole Dolan thing."

I took a deep breath. I had avoided talking to my mother about this but I guess if I was going to fill in anyone it would be Anna. We had always been super close since we were both victim of Gabriel's pranks growing up.

"Well, I was making dumplings..."
I told her about being locked in the closet and Dean coming to my rescue twice. She smiled the whole time.

"You think you are over him?"

Was I over Dolan? I think I'm in the process. I loved him. Even though I can avoid the thoughts of him in the day he still haunts me in unconsciousness. Sometimes I miss him, and other times I wish I had never met him.

"Honestly Anna, this is the first time I've left him officially and it's been a week."

She looked at me with sad eyes, " I think Dean is helping you with that. I'd like to meet him.

"Do you think you could fall in love with him?"

I looked her square in the eyes. " If I can get away from Dolan I can do anything. He isn't going to rule my life anymore. I think I found something with Dean. I'm not exactly sure yet. But he did chase me to Kansas so the guy is pretty dedicated. I guess I'll give him a chance-"

"You should and I can tell you the reason why."

I smiled a little. "And what's that?"

"Since you've always mostly dated guys, you can't get anyone pregnant,"

She looked down at Bri who was sleeping peacefully in her arms.

"And no one will knock you up and leave you a single mom."

I got up and walked over to where she was and kissed her forehead.
"I'm proud of you, and how this goes only time will tell. I'm going to bed. Night."

"Night bee, good dreams."

"Better yet! Sexy ones!"
She called up the stairs.

"Goodnight Anna!"

She laughed in reply. It's good to be home.

Dean

When I got in the door of Charlie's house I heard things I don't want to talk about. So I found my headphones and untangled the bitch ass things and laid down on the couch.

I let out a sigh. Peace.

At least someone was getting action around here.

I started getting that feeling again. The one where all the memories from the marines flood my brain.

Think about something else.

Cas. Castiel Novak.

That's better.

For the first time ever, I didn't want to use pain as an outlet when the dreams or flashbacks came. I just thought about Cas.

My angel, in a way. He was so fucking perfect. Yet he is putting up with my annoying ass.

Guess I got lucky.

I think I'm learning that scars fade. I think I might just call Sam. I mean I can't.

Fuck I'm so fucking indecisive I don't know how the fuck I get out he door with clothes that match on.

I don't know how this whole thing is gonna go over.

But I hope it goes great, because Cas is the type of guy, I think anyway that can help put this mess back together,

Or put me in the fucking mental hospital.

The last thing I want to do is eat that crappy hospital food so I am gonna make this work.

One way or another.