Wild is the Wind

Don't Go

Dean

Cas was gonna run two marathons away from me after this weird ass dinner.

Between Dorothy and Charlie staring at each other wiggling their eyebrows and then asking questions like: "Who tops?"

Cas choked on his iced tea and I on the burger in my mouth.

I closed my eyes an felt my whole body heat up.

"So?"

With my eyes closed tightly, I tried to say, "That was really-" but I was interrupted by Mr. Deep Sea Blue Eyes.

"Me."

We hadn't even talked about doing it. I mean hell yeah I thought of it but...

My thoughts were running down the street faster than a guy covered in raw meat from a starved hangry tiger.

Then Cas put his hand on my knee and squeezed it.

I opened my eyes then and where I thought I would see shock and horror I saw a smile.

Then he turned from me and looked at Charlie.

"Tell me some embarrassing stuff about Dean."

"No-" I tried to fucking say but of-fucking-course it didn't do a damn thing to phase the three slut-keteers

"-Please Dean, I have a feeling me and your knew boyfriend are gonna get a long great."

"Yes, I also think that."
Castiel answered.

I looked at Dorothy to pull me out of this. She mouthed "Beer" and I nodded.

So while nerd 101 and Mr.
smooth talked, me and Dorothy the witch slayer went outside.

"Your in love with him aren't you?"

" Shit. Yes."

" Have you done a little better with the drinking?"

" Honestly I've been doing a lot better but I still go to bed drunk most of the time, it's the only way I sleep and don't dream."

She sighed and put her hand on my shoulder.

"Hun, from what you have told us about him, he's been through a lot and you have to  tell him the truth before he decides if he can do it."

I put my head in my in my hands. "I know."

I just didn't want him to leave me.

Castiel

I was laughing so hard I thought I might pass out.

"Panties?"

Charlie just nodded and we laughed so much harder.

"Hope I'm not interrupting anything." Dean said coming in the door. I wiped the tears out of my eyes and stood up.

"No, not at all." I gave Charlie a look and walked over towards Dean.

Something looked like it was troubling him. "Hey Cas, I gotta talk to you."

"Okay." I turned back to Dorothy and Charlie and the shooed me away.

We stepped outside on the porch and then he took a deep breath.

"Cas, I don't know how to really tell you this but I'll try. I was in the marines and this isn't half of anything but I'm kinda messed up. I have ptsd and it shows up every so often. I drink a lot it helps me sleep but my nightmares are terrible..." He trailed off. It was as if his voice had left him and his eyes shut tightly.

"You don't have to tell me what happened Dean." I whispered to him.

Dean opened his eyes and looked at me with such agony.

"I just don't want you to leave Cas. You are my saving grace."

His hands settled on my face, "Don't go."

I kissed him hard enough to bruise the both of us. He pushed me up against the outside wall and every inch of us was close together. When we broke apart our breathing was heavy.

"Cas, I'm in love with you."

I didn't know what to say.

My heart hammered inside my chest and felt like I was going to pass out. I just put my head on his shoulder. I breathed in the scent of him and it calmed me.

"It's okay, you don't have to say it. Not unless you can."

"Dean I..." I paused an took a breath.

"I know it's been a long time since Dolan. But I'm still scared. "

"I won't hurt you. I can't."
His fingers drew little patterns on my back making my skin tingle. "Castiel I am in love with you. I want you to be my boyfriend. Can you do that?"

"Yes." I smiled against his lips.

"AND I CANT FIGHT THIS FEELING ANYMORE" Charlie and Dorothy came through the front door singing.

In a way it was so true. I couldn't fight this anymore. And as Dean's lips met mine again I knew that I would do anything for him. Put him back together.

I knew that I loved him.

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