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I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met. He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile. "Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."

I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment. I saw his mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile. Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions. With one small gesture you can change a person's life. For better or for worse. God puts us all in each other's lives to impact one another in some way. Look for good in others.

See now this, this is a true story.

I'm not going to give it away, the names of course. But this boy, he was a so called 'nerd'. The usual. With glasses, braces, pimples, even making straight A's.

But the kids, they were so cruel. They'd push him around and call him names. I mean we all have the usual bully here and there. But what these people did was unspeakable. They shoved him in lockers threatening people to not let him out or they'd be next. They tied him up in the gym room with belts after school so no one would hear his pleas for help. They'd rub there sweaty clothes in his face and even tied a jock cup to his face so they could call him a 'ball licker'.

He was on his way home, carrying all his books when his same enemies came rushing towards him throwing him to the ground. His body hit the grass and his glasses went flying across the field. The girl who helped him, she was an angel sent from above. Because she not only told the bullies off but also became his best friend.

Help.

You never know what your actions can do to people.

A simple "hi!" could switch a person's mood because atleast you noticed them.

A smile in the hallway could cheer them up, making them laugh could make them feel alive again because let's be honest.

When was the last time you laughed?

Wouldn't it be good to laugh again. The laugh you don't have to force, but a true laugh.

But wouldn't it be so much easier to give up? Nobody would care is what your thinking, nobody would notice they would mourn for an hour and get over it.

But sorry to break it to you but your wrong.

There's over 7 billion people on this planet.

And there is atleast 5 people that love and care for a single person. I bet you didn't know that. Within one family, even if the family is torn apart, there's someone who cares about you. Within one school, even if people don't show compassion, there's atleast one person who cares about you. Within one town, even if it was a stranger who didn't know you but they smiled and said hi to you on the streets, that person would care. Because they would think to themselves that if they would have did something more then maybe you wouldn't have died. Within one country, there's over thousands of people who know you, from a simple Facebook post, from family members talking about you, to even the abuse they knew you suffered. Within one country there is a person who wishes they could meet you and help. Because maybe they know what it feels like.

They know what it's like to be stepped on, treated badly, broken, or lost. Because we have all witnessed being in the dark.

But guess what?

There is always a light.

Yes! There really is and don't deny it because if you do I might just have to get all up in your DM's and help you with a problem. I'd be glad to help anyone who is having an issue, I will happy to tell anyone that there's hope, I would be happy to talk to a 21 year old who thinks there's no point in life and give them a reason to live.

Because that's all I wanted anyone to ever do for me.

But I had to face it alone.

No scratch that.

I didn't do it alone.

Remember what I said. Is that there's people who care about you, and me writing all these words on a screen on my phone or computer might not seem important to you but there's a reason I'm writing this and putting a halt to my other book. Because a few days ago, I was thinking about suicide. Me and a very close person got into a huge argument. Not a miner one, but the one that makes your stomach drop and makes your heart beat really fast until your crying. Our connection was almost broke because of a certain reason. And you know what? I was honestly thinking about slitting my wrists and leaving a note over one person.

One person out of a 7 billion almost made me ruin myself. But then I realized something.

Connections are broke for a reason and if they don't want you in their life then let them leave. Do NOT hold them back because they'll just make your life more miserable by playing with your emotions. See I wish I would have realized this sooner because now that I look back on it I cannot believe I almost lost my life because of people that I didnt even need.

And I know it's going to hurt. I know you might spend days and days crying over someone who you lost. But they're not worth your tears and they're definitely not worth a life. Because your life is unique make them regret hurting you. Even if you do have to put on a fake smile for a couple days you need to reach out and get help.

Do NOT!

I REPEAT!

DO NOT! Keep all your feelings bottled up to yourself. Please I'm begging you please, please don't do that. And you don't even have to talk to someone about it. Talk to yourself and I know that might sound crazy but it helps. I've done it, and yea sure I'm a little crazy, but that's who I am! I love being crazy I love being happy I love living my life the way I want to! I love being the bubbly giggly person I am today!

And do you want to know a secret??

This is my biggest secret of all.

And the best part is that you don't even have to keep it a secret!

My secret is that even if I don't know you, even if you live in Australia, New Zealand, China, or Europe or any other place.

I Love You!

Oh yea, I used the big 'L' word. But it's so true! I love you all and I'm one person that will care if you die! I will come to your funeral and cry over you. I will pray at your grave and deliver flowers everyday. I will send notes to your inbox of an old social media account telling you how much I would have cared if you talked to me. I would scream at you from earth telling you that YOU ARE WORTH IT!

I told you I was crazy.

And I'm sure you don't want this nut case at your funeral. So that gives you another reason to live!

But that's a small laughing matter reason.

The real reason to live is your future.

Yea sure you might have scars, you might have a bad past or a bad reputation, you might not have a loving home or a family that cares, but think about your future.

If you set goals you will make them come true!

But living!

Living is your biggest goal!

So boys, girls, children, adults, ladies and gentlemen.

Please do me a favor??

Succeed your goal. Your top goal....

To live.

If you keep that promise then I'll promise it to! I promise I'll be here to help you, I promise I will do anything to make it better, I promise I will talk to you if you need help.

I PINKY PROMISE!

And I always keep my pinky promises.