Fighting for the Lost (Sebastian's Daughter Book 4) (COMPLETE)

Chapter 9

Selena's POV:

As soon as Dad and Alex had left, the voices came back. "Monster," they told me. "No matter what they tell you, you'll always be a monster in their eyes. And the worst part is, you know that it's true. You just refuse to admit it."

I shook my head violently, trying to rid myself of them. No. I told them. You're wrong. They'd never think that. Especially not Alex. We're the same.

"You think that makes any difference? Alex knows he's a monster just like you. That's why he doesn't tell you. Your father's the same way. He knows both of his children are monsters. He just doesn't want to blow his cover."

STOP! GO AWAY! I screamed at them. By then, the door opened, and I heard footsteps run toward me as I held my head, still screaming at the voices to go away.

I felt something touch my shoulder, and instantly sat up, eyes closed and hands pressed tightly against my ears. "Go away!" I screeched.

I felt arms wrap around me. I fought them, but I couldn't break free. I screamed and clawed at the arms wrapped firmly around me, but eventually gave up and just sat there in their arms, crying.

"Selena, it's alright. It's just me."

At Alex's voice, I only cried harder, but turned to lean against him.

Alex held me, and once I'd calmed down slightly, I asked him, "N-not to be r-rude or a-anything, b-but why are they o-only after me?"

"I've been wondering the same thing. Something about you must be pretty special for someone to not want you to exist."

"Or maybe they're right. Maybe something about me is horrible, and I shouldn't exist at all. Maybe they really are trying to do the world a favor."

"Stop talking like that, Selena. If there was something bad about you, me or Dad or someone would have seen it by now."

"Maybe...."

"Selena," Alex said, pushing me away slightly to look into my eyes. "I promise you that there is nothing bad about you. You need to ignore those voices. I'll be here with you so that maybe they won't come back. We're hoping they won't talk to you if you're with someone."

"So you won't leave me?"

"Never."

I latched back onto him, trying not to cry but failing. Alex held me and rubbed my back, until I finally fell asleep in his arms.

***

I awoke in the same position as before, Alex still holding me gently. I glanced up at him, and he smiled down at me.

"Good morning."

"Is it morning?"

"No, it's only been a couple of hours."

"You've been sitting here with me for two hours?"

"Yup."

"I didn't mean to make you do that."

"It's alright. But my leg is kind of cramping, so...."

"Oh!" I jumped off of him and let him stretch his legs.

"That's a little better." He said with a smile.

"I'm sorry."

"It's not your fault. Don't worry about it."

I watched him, feeling horrible about it. "But-"

"Selena, you've gotta stop blaming yourself for everything. I'm fine, and I chose to sit with you. Therefore, not your fault."

I nodded. He smiled, and walked over to the door.

"What are you-"

"Just checking on something. I'm not leaving."

Alex opened the door and leaned his head out, looking like he was searching for something. But once the door was open, the voices came back.

"Monster."

***

Third Person POV:

"Alex."

Alex turned around quickly from his conversation with one of the demon maids. He noticed the distressed look on his sister's face, and immediately abandoned the conversation the comfort her.

He heard the maid close the door behind him, and he was grateful. He didn't want many people seeing Selena like this. After hearing about what happened at Christopher's lab, they all thought she was strong and a hero. He didn't want them to see her this fragile and start thinking differently. She was strong, she just didn't know how to handle what was happening. None of them did.

"Why won't they leave me alone?" She asked desperately. "Why?"

Alex held his sister, trying to calm her. He decided to change the subject. "Hey, the maid I was talking to said that Finny and Maria should be back by tomorrow."

"So fast?"

"Apparently someone picked them up. I didn't hear who, though."

Selena thought back to last time Maria and Finny had hitched a ride from someone, and shuddered.

"Are you cold?" Alex asked.

Selena shook her head. "No, I was just thinking about the last person who helped them get to us faster."

Alex was confused, but didn't question anything. "At least they're close."

Selena gave a small smile, thinking of seeing Finny again. "Yeah...."

"Well, do you want to do anything? Staying locked up in here is a little exhausting."

Selena nodded, and Alex took her hand and walked with her down the hall. Once they made it to the dining hall, they were stopped by Samantha.

"Where are you going?" She asked.

"Just walking around. It's getting pretty stuffy in that room."

"We can move you to one with a window, but I'm not quite sure Sebastian wants that. Someone could see you."

"That's what we're afraid of. That's why we're just walking around the manor."

Samantha smiled sadly. "Alright, well have fun you two."

Alex smiled to Samantha before she walked off, but Selena just stared down at her feet.

"Hey," Alex whispered. "Are you okay?"

Selena only nodded.

Alex wasn't sure what to do, so he just led his sister back upstairs. On the way up the stairs, they were both silent. Alex was worried that something was happening, but by the look on Selena's face, she was just zoning out and didn't feel like talking.

Once outside Selena's room, though, she froze. Alex gently tugged on her, trying to get her to continue, but she wouldn't budge.

"Selena, come on," Alex said gently. "We're almost there."

Selena shook her head, then stared at her brother, fear on her face.

"Alex...." She whispered. "They're here...."