I hate you but I love you | dandy mott

chapter 13;

I snuck back to camp late, I had spent god knows how many hours with dandy and I had lost track of time.

"Why are you covered in dirt and ... blood?" I tensed and turned around to see Jimmy and Paul smoking on a bench outside the main tent, each holding a bottle of alcohol. Paul was Jimmy's best friend, he was also known as seal boy due to his arm deformities.

"I... I.." Jimmy had told me that him and Paul stayed out late every Thursday. Today was Thursday. How could I forget?! I shivered and started to step from the boys, slowly.

Almost immediately, a series of looks spread across Jimmy's face. First horror, then anger and then a shocked look of realisation.

"You were with him!" He yelled, his voice slurred and getting angrier on every word. "I warned you Diana!" He stood up, a bottle clasped in his claw-like hands. Paul glanced at me, obviously confused by the whole situation. "You're so... STUPID!"

His voice echoed around the freakshow that I had learned to call home these past weeks, awakening many of the other freaks. One by one they started to open their trailer doors, staring at me and jimmy with tired eyes.

"I am not stupid!" I finally yelled back, finally. "You do NOT control me, Jimmy! I can do what I want!" I stamped my foot angrily and before I knew what was happening, I felt a hard object hit my head and I collapsed to the ground.

Loud voices. A gun shot. A scream. I wasn't conscious of the situation, but I could hear over-whelming noises ringing in my ears as well as a constant buzzing that accompanied my throbbing head. What had happened?
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I woke up lying in a soft bed that smelled of rose flowers; where was I ? I was definitely not at the freak show ...

I slowly heaved my self up onto my elbows to get a good look around, greeted by a stinging pain on my head. I shook it off and waited for my vision to stop being so blurry.

When I could finally see, I finally took in my surroundings. I was in a large room, with flowery wallpaper and white cupboards with intricate daisy patterns all over the smooth paint work. Beside me was a crystal glass filled with clear, expensive mountain water and a small silver ware ash tray next to it.

I slung my legs out of the bed and felt the soft, cream carpet beneath my bare feet.
"Hello?" I choked out, just loud enough to hope somebody would hear me.

Slowly, the heavy white door was opened and I was greeted by a smiling Dandy. "You're awake!" He rushed over to me, holding a tray of food in his hands.
I smiled at him weakly and took the food, pecking him on the cheek as I did so.

I started to devour the buttered roll and scooped the soft cream cheese into my mouth. I sighed and sat back in the bed. I don't know how long I was out, but it was definitely a while because I was starving.

"Thank you dandy," I breathed out. "But... Why am I here?" The smile faded from the rich boys face and he turned away from me, straightening the collar on his sweater vest.

"Do you not want to be here?" His voice shook with sudden anger. My eyes widened and I shook my head, shocked.
"Go on, Diana!" He snapped. "Leave! I bet you hate me as much as I hate them stupid freaks!" His voice cracked and I watched as tears rolled down his soft, baby-skin cheeks.

I cringed at how he used the word stupid and felt myself flush red, fury taking over every single cell in my body. "I DONT WANT TO LEAVE!" I screamed exasperated. "And don't call us stupid, I'm a freak too! Probably just another stupid freak in your eyes " Every word that left my mouth was coated in anger - I had no idea where this sudden rage had come from. The way I was shouting at dandy made me sound childish. Just like dandy. Just... Like... Dandy...

Sorry for the extremely long chapter && the lack of updates!! Also thank you so so much for 700 reads ily all so much :) - Lx