I hate you but I love you | dandy mott

chapter 17;

When I awoke it was the next morning, I had been asleep for around 15 hours... Strange. I never usually slept past 9.

I tossed over in the sheets to find nobody laying next to me. I sat up and sighed. "Dandy?" I croaked out groggily, rubbing my eyes with my first. I slipped out of the bed and called for him again, no reply. And again, no reply. And again, no reply.

I decided this would be a good time to head to have a bath and clean myself properly, I would then look for Dandy some more.

The washroom smelt of citrus soap and the colour scheme was lilac. The floor tile was newly polished and stunning white with little specs of rhinestone on the floor, which glittered under the lights. There was a mirror above the lilac sink and at the far end of the room was the huge bath. I headed over to it and turned the hot water on. Watching the water run, slowly.

I smiled to myself as I dipped myself into the water. This past month had been so hectic. I would have never imagined I would be here, where I am now, a few weeks ago. But this was my life now and I needed to come to terms with that.
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Once I was out of the bath, I had to get changed and find Dandy – but I had none of my own clothes. Eventually, after searching many different cupboards and wardrobes, I found a selection of many gorgeous dresses, made of silky material.

I was a little confused as to why a grown man possessed such an array of women's outfits, but Dandy never failed to surprise me. Plus, it was clear to me now, he wasn't a grown man, mentally.

I slipped myself into a sunny yellow frock, with white heels and pushed my hair back with a matching headband. Now to find Dandy... where could that boy be?

I checked the garden, every room in the house and finally out front. His favourite baby blue car wasn't there, so he must've gone out. I knew that Dandy was capable of looking after himself, so I decided I would do my own thing too.

So, I was going to head to the freakshow, I had to find out what happened there yesterday.

I skipped down the muddy road, seeing the freakshow promotion posters hung on the side of the road and I giddily smiled, I felt so at home there. I turned into the camp and suddenly my smile faded. It wasn't the same.

Normally people were out, walking around, chatting, drinking, smoking but no body was here today. I proceeded to look around anyway.

"Diana!" I spun around to see Maggie Esmerelda. "What are you doing here? I thought you ran off with moneybags!"

I shook my head. "This is my home, I am a freak. Unlike you..." I shoved past her and stormed over to the main tent where everybody was crowded around a bench, muttering words beneath their breath.

I cleared my throat an Evie spun around, smiling weakly at me. I raised an eyebrow, so the tall woman wrapped an arm around my shoulder and lead me back outside.

"What's going on? What's happened?" I started to ramble. I wanted to know what had happened last night, obviously it wasn't good and I still had no memory of it at all.

"Uhmm..." She started and then tightened the bandana that was wrapped around he head. "You came back to camp... Jimmy tried to pick a fight. He wasn't sober, he didn't mean to... To... To hit you." She sighed. So that part was true, Dandy hadn't  lied. "That... Dandy Mott guy... Came along an then," she shuddered. "He shot Paul."

I felt my face crumple and then I steadied myself by gripping onto Evie's arm. I felt sweat prickle across my forehead. He couldn't have. He couldn't have killed my friend... Why would he do that? Why would he do that?!

"Is he d-d..." I felt sick. Dandy had harmed a friend of mine and as us freaks are a family. He may have killed one of my family members. My only family. Evie smiled sadly and shook her head.

"He is alive, barely. But he's still with us."

Relief washed over my body and I finally let go of Evie's arm, blushing slightly. "What has happened to Jimmy?" I asked quietly, raising an eyebrow.

"He's gone off the rails," she said sadly. "He keeps drinking himself into a frenzy! He keeps going to some tupperware party house on 5th street." And suddenly, I got an idea of where Dandy might be...
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