I Hate Loving Him

truth

Andys POV
Today was the day, I was finally being released, but know that I now Jayy loves me im going to make him happy. *Flashback*
I was waiting for a visit but the ladies didn't tell me who was visiting me. I saw motionless and was scared he had Jayy but he didnt i was relieved and sad that Jayy hasnt visited me. "Andy you idiot what were you thinking? why would you try to end yourself?" "Chris I cant live without him. I love him chris. I am in love with Jayy. I saw you two together 2 months ago and I know he loves you. I couldnt think of a life without Jayy by my side thats what I have wanted for years. to be able to hold him and love him." Chris was in thought for a minute "He doesnt know" what the hell is he talking about "Jayy, I mean he doesnt know your here he just thought you were mad and avoiding him.Your boys dont want to tell him. They feel like what you tried was there fault for fucking with Jayy." Fuck "I need you to come back in a week that way i can make you a note tell jayy the truth when I give you the note." "Andy, Jayy is in love with you I may not like it but he is. Hes scared youll be abusive with him. He scared he wont be good enough. He told me he rejected you becuase he thought you were going through a phase. He didnt want to get hurt by you ending up rejecting him in the end. Even though I do love jayy our 'relationship' was part of the game. He doesnt know I love him but he doesnt need to cause i see his eyes when i mention you the brighten up.He gets this look as if he NEEDS to be with you.But he wont allow himself to be hurt." That changed everything.
*end of flashback*
He did comeback and got the note but he told me Jayy started getting depressed with the thought of me being 'mad' at him so I told motionless to tell Jayy the truth. I just called Chris to pick me up from the Facility.So here I am waiting out side with my one suitcase. I looked up and saw Jayy i ran up to him.He threw himself on me wrapping his legs on my waist and his arms around my neck "Andy you idoit Im not worth you trying to kill yourself" "oh jayy your worth the world to me" with that i gave him a passionate kiss that i didnt allow To get heated i wanted our first actual kiss to be sweet and soft. "Ahm" there stood Chris with my suitcase "dont you have something to do Andrew." i flinched at my full name "ofcourse Christopher" he visibly flinched lol. I detangled Jayy from me and got on one knee "Jeremy i promise to be sweet and loving with you.i promise to be whatever you want me to be and i promise to love you forever. Will you Jeremy be my boyfriend?" Jayy nodded with tears in his eyes and jumped on me again. He kissed me with a slow romantic kiss moving his hands threw my hair and back.while i moved my towards his waist and hips