I Hate Loving Him

suicide

Jayys POV
"How long have you loved me?" I asked Andy "since 7th grade"
"Why did you pick on me?" i asked "becuase you rejected me. you broke my heart. I was in love with you still am" i stayed quite. "I love you too but you caused me scars physical,mental and emotional abuse." " i will never hurt you intentionally again baby Im sorry for what ive done but it hurt me to see you with others and I thought i was loosin-" "-dont you think it hurt me to see you with Juliet or-" "they didnt mean anything to me I was inlove with you i couldnt see them that way they thought it was the band but it was them not being you love. I LOVE YOU ok . I always will be. " i got on his lap. "Why did you try to kill yourself and how" i asked quietly " i got sad i thought i had lost you to motionless. I lost it i couldnt imagine a life without you baby. I drank pills and vodka i drank 50 pills and all a bottle of vodka. My mom game into my room to ask if i wanted dinner thats how im still alive ....I love you beautiful" he said as i had tears in my eyes i smiled and whispered it back
"You know I love you. " i whispered while grinding my hips into his own. "Mhm yeas baby" "im going to top you so hard baby " he looked down "do you really want this Jayy?" "i do but do you?" i said while stoping my grinding causing him to whine "yes baby i want to feel you" and so we spent our night making love to eachother many times both of being top and bottom (aka switching spots)