I Hate Loving Him

Months

*3 months later*
Jayys POV.
Its been 3 months since I've talked to Andy and I miss him. I miss my bully. I am officially the craziest person alive. Right now im just sitting with Chris, not much has changed except my hair grew and dyed it blue,black and purple. "Jayy you know I love you right" chris asked me "um yea why" "I dont think we should be together anymore Jayy. I know you love Andy and I know he loves you.When you asked me to play this game I never wanted my real emotions to surface but they did and I am completely, Utterly, desperately, deeply in love with you Jeremy.But I want you to be happy and Your happiness is Andy. Nobody wanted to tell you but the reason you havent seen Andy is becuase hes in a mental facility and hes getting released in a week." I didnt know what to say I was in complete shock Chris love me. ANDY LOVES ME? Andy is in a mental facility for-"wait why is Andy in a mental facility and how do you know he loves me?" " He um tried to commit Suicide. he wrote you a note in the facility here." I took the note shakey hands "Dear Jayy,
I know I hurt you and im sorry I was hurt becuase when I told you I loved you, you rejected me I was so hurt and angry but not with you but with myself. I thought I wasnt good enough. But Jayy I love you with all my heart and I want you to know if we were in a relationship I would never hurt you I would never be aggresive with you. Hurting you was my dumbest mistake. I regret it all. I regret not telling you the truth about the game I regret hurting you everyday since you rejected me. I regret not telling you my true feelings. Im going to get out of the facility in a week maybe less. you can ask me any question when im out. I love you jayy. I want to be with you. Fuck that i NEED to be with you you are my reason to live and dont say you dont love me Motionless told me everything ttyl. I LOVE YOU." I thought about it I love him but can I trust him to never hurt me again. Can I trust him to hold my heart while i hold his. What about Chris he deserves to be loved too. "Hey Chris. Is there anyone you think is cute?" "there is this one boy I like his names Ricky." "wait your band member?" "...yeah" well good news is i know Ricky loves him "you should ask him on a date" i say while looking into his eyes "do you think he'll accept?" "i know he will"