Got Til' Its Gone

XIV.

"Quincy, Quincy?" I called shaking him so that he could wake up. "Baby wake up." I said still shaking him.  He doesn't wanna wake up, I got something for his ass. I pulled the cover back a little bit and popped him right on the top of his chest. He popped up holding his chest like he had just seen a ghost. "Get the fuck up." I said hopping out of the bed. "Baby, what you do that for?" He asked rubbing his chest. "Because you need to get up." I said rolling my eyes. He got up out of the bed rubbing his eyes. "Where my shirt?" He asked stretching. "I don't know Quincy. Did I take off your shirt?" I said with an attitude.  I bet he thinks we're just good, the only reason I let him sleep here last night is because I didn't feel like arguing. "why you got an attitude Jay? I just asked you a question." He said smacking his lips. "Ask Jennifer why I have an attitude." I said rubbing my forehead. "Jay you need to chill." He said with a slight attitude. I could tell he was getting annoyed with me acting this way but I don't care I feel like there's reason behind my attitude.

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February , 1997

"Hey ma." I said waving to my mother as I walked into the house. "Hey son." She said walking up to give me a hug. "How's Jay?" She asked lighting up her cigarette. I took a deep breath and rubbed my face. "She's alright ma." I lied. "You want me to break my foot off in your ass boy." She asked taking off her shoe and throwing it at me. "You lying I know you lying. What's really going on?" She asked crossing her arms. "I cheated on her, and she's mad at me. She's had an attitude every since." I sighed. "You cheated? What for?" She asked looking at me like I had three heads. "I know ma, it's just I didn't know what I was getting myself into by getting with her. She's been through a lot. She just be sad all the time." I said sitting down next to her. "That's no reason to cheat Quincy. If you don't want to be with her, tell her that." She said pushing my head. "I do want to be with her, but I kind of want to be with Jennifer too" I sighed. "Jennifer? Who the hell is Jennifer?" She said standing with her hands on her hips. I sighed and put my face in my hands, I knew exactly where this conversation was going. My mom really likes Jade. "Jennifer is this girl that I've been sneaking around with. She goes to our school, but she's a junior." I replied with my face still in my hands. "A junior? Boy get out my face I can't even look at you right now!" She yelled walking out of the room. I know my momma pissed at me , it's just that sometimes I need an escape from all Jade's problems. I feel like I've taken them on by becoming her boyfriend. I need some guidance , I need some help, I need to go see my bestfriend. I walked out of the house and got into the car. I took a straight path to Pistol's house. I knocked on his door for awhile before he came and answered. Once he opened the door and saw me standing there he shook his head in disappointment. "I need to talk to you." I said trying to make my way into the house, but he pushed me back. "Not now man." He said closing the door. "What you mean not now. Why you tripping on me?" I furrowed my brows in confusion. "You tell me." He said opening the door  little bit so that I could see who inside of the house. I peeked in and I could Jade sitting on his couch crying her eyes out. I didn't know what to say, I couldn't really say anything. "You ain't talked to this fucking girl in days Q. You got over here broken thinking she did something wrong man." He yelled at me. "I know." I mumbled. "You know? What the fuck you mean , you know? You can't be this damn heartless Q. I know you ain't. " He continued to yell. "What you trying to do dawg? Be KD all over again?" He asked. "Man hell nah. I ain't never put my hands on her."I sucked my teeth. "You ain't got to man! What you doing is enough. Out here running around frivolously with this girl, like you ain't been in a relationship with Jade since October. That alone makes you equivalent to him." He asked pushing me. "Man I thought you was my dawg." I said adjusting my shirt. "I am, but I'm not about to sit here and support what the fuck you doing man, especially when its my friend that you doing it too. Jade don't deserve that." He said shaking his head. I turned around and walked away. I know that's what I needed to hear, but that's not what I wanted to hear. Jr only trying to help me , but they ain't do nothing but confuse me more.

Hey you guys , it's been awhile I know. Well for starters let me say I was about to delete this book, but I have ideas for it now. First of all let me say , some of this book and future details are inspired by things that have actually happened to me. Unfortunately at one point this book became hard for me to write, but I'm back now. 😘

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