Another night without him and it's another sleepless night for me. I get up and grab myself a drink. I pace back and forth. I hear the front door open quietly and close quietly.
"You don't have to be quiet I'm up already." I heard him sigh and he shut the door loudly. I take another sip of my drink. He walks up to me and hugs me and I smell her perfume. I push him off of me.
"YOU SICK SON OF A BITCH. OUT OF ALL PEOPLE YOU SLEPT WITH MY SISTER!!!" I see him look down and look all innocent. I pick his face up and push him again.
"You must think I'm stupid don't you. I know my sisters scent she's the only woman in fucking America that smells like a whole lot of White Diamonds." I run my hand through my hair. I've never wanted to fight this man in my life, but today sounded good.
"It meant nothing." I throw my cup at him and it misses and hits the wall breaking. I walk up to him and slap him. He grabs ahold of my arms and pushes me away. I push him back. He wouldn't dare hit me or would he? I grab my keys as he yells after me. I get in my car and start to drive to my sisters house. I'm guessing her daughter is with my mother and her husband is working late. I finally arrive to her house and bang on the door.
"C'MON YOU BITCH!! OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR." I know she must be afraid. She opens the door and I tackle her. I punch her in the face and she cries out.
"Why would you do this to me Natasha huh? Why?" she holds her face and I get up standing over her not caring if she's hurt.
"YOU HAVE A HUSBAND AND A DAUGHTER! LEAVE MINE ALONE!" She gets up slowly and hits me in the face and I push her off of me and I begin to choke her, but stop before she's dead.
"FUCK YOU AND EVERYTHING YOU STAND FOR YOU SPOILED BITCH!" I take a golfclub and break her kitchen windows. I begin to tear everything up. I hate her... I fucking hate her.
"YOU'RE STUPID FOR STAYING WITH HIM!!" I looked back at her and walked up to her and pushed her. I pushed her again and she fell and began to scoot back.
"And you're stupid for fucking with me." I tackle her again and I punch her in her nose making her nose bleed. I get off of her and begin to cry. I walk out her house and go into my car. I find a cigarette and light it. I hit the steering wheel and scream. I wipe my face and I let the window down letting the smoke go out. I begin to drive taking the longest way home. I was letting the sun come up.
I finally entered my driveway and closed the door. I walked into my home and saw Geoffrey sitting on the couch. I sat against the wall across from him. He held his head in his hands.
"There's nothing worst then seeing a man cry over something he did. You fucked up and out of all people you fucked up with my sister." I shut my mouth and For once in my life I saw that his face was tear stained. I crawled slowly towards him and I finally came up to him.
I kissed his knee and his cheek. I wiped his face and got up. I began to walk to the bathroom and I ran myself a bath. I need a drink, smoke, and this bath. I got in and had the best idea to drown myself. I broke down and cursed at myself.
I scream again and hit the wall. I'm going crazy and I don't know what's going on. I thought I could do it, but I didn't think he would do that with my sister. I heard a knock at the bathroom door and I wiped my face.
"You okay?" No you son of bitch I'm close to drowning out my liver and blacken my lungs even more to get rid of the pain I feel when i'm with you.
"I love you so much Geoffrey and... And you keep doing this. I could deal with it, but with my sister you really hit my breaking point. I love you so much and you know I won't let go. Am I enough anymore?" He came in and sat down on top of the toilet. He was silent and didn't answer my question. Of course he didn't and I laughed at him and pulled him towards the edge of the tub. I began to play with his hair. I began to hum before actually singing.
"Yo te di todo mi amor y más
Y tu no reconoces ni lo que es amar
Yo me puse dispuesta a tus pies
Y tan solo con desprecio me has pagado pero ahora ve." He knew what I was singing it was nothing hidden. I kissed his lips and continued to play with his hair.
"I've made so many mistakes in my life and you're one of them. You're the mistake I love though and I wouldn't make a different decision no matter how much bullshit we go through." I laugh and he laughs along with me. I continue playing with his hair.
"Tell me you didn't break one of her ribs?" I looked at him and shrugged. I held his hand and looked at him.
"No, but her nose might be." We both began to laugh again. I know I was supposed to feel bad for kicking my sisters ass, but I didn't. I pushed him off the edge of the tub and he fell on to the floor.
"I'm sorry I'm still a little upset." I saw him smile like I said great friends but as a husband he's not meant for it. I got out of the bath and put a towel around me. He got up and he lotioned my back and my legs. He kissed my lips and I smiled. I put on one of his dress shirts that he never wears. I got into bed and began to fall asleep. I began to think about everything and heard my phone ring, but I didn't answer.
