I'm not fine at all

Time for a change

'@lukehemmings5sos Putting on weight luke?'

'@lukehemmings5sos Your a terrible singer, go kill your fat ugly self'

'@lukehemmings5sos Please save our eyes and starve'

@lukehemmings5sos You don't deserve to be in the band just get anorexia your burning my eyes'

'@lukehemmings5sos you make me want to puke'

"you ok mate?" I looked up to see Calums worried eyes

"ah ah yeah yeah m'fine"

"you sure ? you look like your crying what are you reading?"

"oh um nothing just some sad story about a dog on twitter um i'm just going to got to the bathroom"

"ok you don't need my permission" he let out a slight chuckle.

I run up the stairs and right into my bathroom.

I stared deep into the mirror  I don't understand why I'm getting so much hate... I mean I have put on some weight.... and I'm not the prettiest thing to look at... and my voice sometimes cracks and um... well this is making me feel worse..

Maybe if I try to lose a bit of weight then the hate will stop.. and I will feel better about myself. And it wont be for long soon I will be back at the junk food its just until I lose a couple pounds.. hang on I haven't weighed myself since I was like whatever years ago.

I ducked down into the bottom  cupboard and grabbed the scale

I stripped down to my boxers to get a more accurate number.

190 pounds.

Holy shit that's a big number.. I grabbed a bit of my fat with my hand.. wow ok so maybe it will be a few more then a couple of pounds.

"Luke are you alright calum said you've been in there for like an hour" Michael yelled through the door

"sorry micky i'm fine"

"Are you shitting?"

I laughed at how open my friend was.

"no i'm taking a shower"

"oh  ok... um luke?"

I hummed in response

"theres no water running"

well...

"oh because I finished it now will you go away I left my clothes out there"

"oh ok haha I will see you downstairs we're going out for dinner"

"ok mike"

I quickly put my clothes on then run downstairs to meet the guys

"oh there you are we were just about to go out any suggestions for dinner?" ashton asked

"um doesn't bother me"

"thanks that helps.." calum laughed

"your welcome!" I smugly replied

"come on lets go" Michael laughed

We ended up eating at pizza hut.. I ate a whole pizza.. but it did have pineapple and pineapples a fruit and fruits healthy right? oh well I guess I will start this diet tomorrow.

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Hi!

What do you think so far?

I know it's not very good, it's my first ever story so please don't judge it will get better I promise....Hopefully

Um yeah .... so please um vote and comment I guess

Wow I'm even more awkward on the internet then in person. Who even thought that was possible?

QOTC  (question of the chapter?)

Who's your favourite boy from 5sos?

A: I literally love all of them so much I can't choose whos my favourite

Luke- Perfection

Ashton-Inspiration  

Calum- hes like a Puppy

Michael- He's not afraid to be different

So yeah please comment and vote um byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee xxx