An excited Dirk ran to school, hoping to get there before Jake. Jake was the only reason Dirk still smiled. After losing his bro, Dave, he had really lost all happiness.Before meeting Jake, he barely managed to carry on, walking himself to school, maintain a little shit job. He dragged himself through each day, until one day he swore it was enough. He trudged on for the remaining hours of high school, and when the bell rang he was out and on the sidewalk already, on his way back to his apartment to do what he had planned. On the way there, he thought of everything. It wasn't long until tears left wet lines down his cheeks. He pushed up his anime shades, so no one saw. Striders don't cry. His bro never cried, crying wasn't cool. He wasn't looking where he was going and ended up walking into a boy a little shorter than him, causing his to drop his stuff and his glasses fell off of his face. There, Dirk sat on his butt looking up angrily at the boy through tears.
"I am so sorry! I wasn't looking where I was going and- woah, mate, are you alright?" He stopped panicking and picking up Dirk's books, and leaned down next to him, resting a hand on his shoulder.Though the boy's accent had Dirk's stomach doing flips, Dirk just shook his hand off and got up, before attempting to walk away. This tan skinned boy wouldn't leave him alone though, as cold, mean, and quiet as Dirk attempted to be, the stupid jokes this boy told made a faint smile crack the angry mask Dirk attempted to plaster onto his face. Finally, when they had stopped laughing, he spoke. "My name is Jake, Jake English! Professional adventurer and survivalist." He smiled. "And you are?" Dirk put his anime shades back on, after realizing he had totally forgot about that, he smirked and said "Dirk Strider, the most sugoi dude you'll ever meet." From then on, they hung out every second of every day, from soft-more year to now, senior year.
Dirk ran up to Jake and hugged him from behind. "Aye English!" Jake let out a small laugh before responding with "Hey Strider, sneaking up on people as always." English turned around to face Dirk, seeing him with those same anime shades, the same shirt, the same dorky personality he loved. Loved. As they walked to their first class together, Jake pondered that word he just thought of. Loved. Loved. Love is a pretty heavy word, Jake never stated it out loud and when he said it in his head, it never felt exactly right. Loved. Dirk on the other hand, would shout out I love you to Jake whenever possible, every second of the day if he could. Jake stopped in front of the gym, as Dirk skipped in. Dirk, realizing Jake hadn't followed, stopped and turned back to face his boyfriend.
"Jake? Are you alright?"
Jake blinked, and smiled up at Dirk. "Just dandy, Dirk." A wide smile felt out of place as Dirk grabbed his hand and began dragging Jake into the boys changing room. Jake's smile began to falter and his feet dug into the ground, causing the 2 boys to halt yet again. "No Dirk, I'm not dandy actually." Hearing this immediately made Dirk spin around to face Jake, eyebrows furrowed aggressively.
"Why? Who did something to you? I'll never let them near you again. I-"
"It's not anyone else Dirk, it's me."
Immediately, Dirk's eyebrows shot up as his eyes widened, but only for a second, until a look of pure concern was soon on his pale face instead.
"W-What's wrong?"
Some many things ran through Jake's head. What is wrong? A question that required a singular answer, but had a plural one instead. What's wrong? Jake fought against gut instinct when Dirk asked him to date him. He thought of Dirk as a friend, but figured give it a shot, it might work out. Mistake 1. When the relationship started, it felt wrong, and scary but didn't every relationship? Mistake 2. Jake hesitated to break up with Dirk, so he led him on, thinking he was sparing his feelings. Mistake 3. The list went on.
"Everything" Jake finally said. "I am sorry, Dirk. We can't be us anymore.I think, Dirk and Jake should be Dirk......and Jake. I just-"
A long pause hung in the air between them, as Dirk let go of Jake and took a step back, shades hiding orange eyes, orange eyes in which behind them a whole world was being shattered to pieces. Shadows fell over Dirk's eyes, as he chuckled bitterly.
"You just what, Jake? You just couldn't anymore? Could you ever?"
"Dirk, it's not like that, it's-"
"It's not you, it's me? Really? Are you going to feed me that cliche bullshit?"
"Please, Dirk, just listen to me for a second."
"No, it's fine. You want to do your own thing, go on your own adventures, break others hearts, make them think you cared, then leave them too? Don't let me stop you."
"Strider-"
"Have fun, Jake."
Dirk shook Jake's hand off of his arm, as he disappeared into the changing room. Jake looked down, fidgeting with his fingers. What had he done? You stopped leading him on, cut it off before he grew too attached. You should be relieved now. This is what you wanted isn't it?
Jake shook his head in response to his own inner thoughts. Jake was anything but relieved. As he trudged into the changing room, Dirk was already done and was walking towards the exit,....towards Jake. Jake looked up, hoping to make eye contact with Dirk over his anime shades, but he didn't even look up. He aggressively, forcefully pushed past everyone, not even attempting to look up.
Just a minute ago, Dirk Strider adored Jake English, now he couldn't even bare to think about him.
Just a minute ago, Jake English was happy, now he has nothing left.
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DIRKJAKE IS STILL A SHIP, HASN'T SANK, NO ONE CAN TELL ME OTHERWISE
BUT still, writing sad stuff is my forte and well Jake is kind of a dick in this one. Sadly, I have to say this was based off of something that happened to me. In my story, I was douche bag Jake, and my poor matesprit was Dirk, blindly in love with a bitch.
Well, you live and you learn right?
Stay stellar, Homestucks.
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