Kik // larry ~ complete

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Last Fetus chapter, Story Will end very Soon..

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I feel the eyes of All my friends burning on my skin.

"Friend? He told us that he don't know you." Hear i Sara saying.

My hands are shaking and I feel sick.

I see Ian looking at me, Like he want me to ask what Harry is doing here, But I also don't have the answer.

"My boo bear. I'm Louis his boyfriend, Or ex boyfriend, I did something and he don't want to forgive me." In Harry his voice I hear sarcasm what makes me mad. 

He is a fucking asshole, Why the fuck is he here? Didn't he already ruïned my life enough? What do he want more?

I want to say so much to Harry, I want to scream to him. Telling him that he have to leave me and my friends alone, That i don't want him around me. But Iknow that Will be possible my biggest lie. Because i miss Harry, Everyday. I miss him coming around on unexpected  moments. Doing things with Harry that i never did before. I told myself that i just loved the excitement. But i also love the way he's looking at me, And i'm acting that i don't know that he is staring at me. I love the way he's touching his hair, Because he wants it always in the Perfect model. And i love it even more that he don't even realize that people are staring at him Because he's so hot Because he has only eyes for me.

That's All a lie Louis. Keep telling the words in my head. It tells me to don't trust him and never let him back in my life again.

I feel a hand in my shoulder and it feels like i'm freezing.

"Can i Please talk to you?" Harry ask, His voice is dark and a little emotionally but that can also be sarcasm.

I feel my friends eyes still burning on my skin and I nod Yes, Hoping that he Will leave really fast.

I follow Harry quitly outside. Harry is humming songs, How can he be that chill? I'm freaking out.

"So do you like it here?" Harry his voice sounds shakily.

"Yes, Harry i do like it hear." I mutter.

I hear Harry sigh and mutter.

"What are you doing here Harry?" The words are leaving my mouth before I even notice it.

My eyes meet his eyes.

Would those pretty pink lips Kissed someone else while I wasn't with him?

Harry his cheecks Turning in a red Color. "You were ignoring my texts, And-"

"And what Harry? I say before he can end his sentence.

I want to fall in his arms, But he did hurt me, And i don't want him to ruin my life again.

"I can't stop thinking About you." Harry says. I shake my head. my heart is pounding fast in my chest.

"That's weird, You wasn't in my mind, Not even once." I lie. Why am i lying the whole time? Why am i acting like this?

"I mean.. It didn't look like that you really liked me. Look at me," i say thinking back About his words: look at him, Ofcourse he hasn't friends.

"Please, I need your love Louis." I don't want to see Harry his geen eyes Because i Will fall for him in a second but Because his trembling voice my eyes meet his eyes, Again.

"Oh really? Were where you when i needed you?" I say.

"I-" Harry tries to talk but i interrupt him.

"No let me talk. I loved you Harry and I trusted you more than anyone and you ruïned it, All by yourself. It wasn't your friends fault but yours, You did fall in love with me, Or that is what you said to me. If you really did that you Will never lie to your friends About me, I don't even care that you're lying About me by your friends but It hurt seeing you lying to yourself." I stop talking Because the eyes start burning in my eyes.

"I'm fighting for you, Don't you see it?" Harry says.

A lot of people are staring at us. Watching How two gay guys are crying and screaming to each other. But I don't care, I don't care that people are pointing to us, Or watching or even laughing.

I never thought that those words would ever leave my mouth: "What if you're already to late to fight for me? I don't want to give you more changes, It doesn't matter How much i love you, You're ruïned, And Because you're ruïned,  i'm selfish and I Will let you go on your own journey, Without me."

The tears are Rolling down of my cheeks. This is the most diffucelt what I have ever done in my life.

it feels like I could fall down any time, The feeling inside is killing me. It hurts, It hurts so much and the tears aren't stopping How hard i'm trying.

Harry isn't moving, He is standing like a corpse.

How could i ever fall in love with him? I had to know that he was trouble, I shouldn't had to repeat on that one Message that changed my life. It feels like years ago since that one Messages, It feels such a long time since we first met but it was not even eight months.

"Louis." Harry starts crying and i nod.

He wasn't playing with my feeling by upset, He's in love with me, He i fighting for me. But we are not good for each other. He Will always be the populair one and I will always be the invisible one. And before we start this to work, I already end it, So we escape for All the pain can happend.

"Iknow Harry." I say.

Harry Walks towards me, And i walk away. How closer he will come how more it Will hurt.

"Please, Let me hold you for the last time." Harry says and before i even notice it, I'm in Harry arms.

I press my head on his should and start crying, Again. I smell his parfum for the last time..

Home doesn't mean two walls were you can hide, Home means two eyes and one heart beat who can let you forget everything.

Harry steps away from me, Way to Soon.

"Bye Louis." Harry press a Kiss on my fore head and then he Walks Away, And i can't stop watching him, until he is a dot in the Crowd, And I realize that this was our last moment.

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Crying, i had to cry sometimes while writing it. So i end the story faster Because i have the feeling that no one is Reading this anymore.