Unrevealed Secrets

Chapter 11

I quickly hopped out of the bed and into the shower I stayed in there for about a good 5 minutes before getting out. I got dressed silently hoping Audrey, Braelyn and Caiden were all still sleeping. I usually don't leave home this early, I looked over at the clock it's 8:40am. I walked out of my room wearing jeans, blue plaid shirt and white shoes and a jacket. Before I left, I wrote a note and left it in Audrey and Braelyn's room. I walked into Braelyn's room she's sleeping on her side facing away from me. I walked towards her even when her hair is messed up, she still managed to look beautiful I have this urge to kiss her, but I want too, I really do, but then I don't.

After a few seconds of staring at her peacefully sleeping in front of me, I walked out of her room. I told them to get ready at a specific time so Jackson can bring them to the studio. Jackson texted me saying he was outside, I grabbed my briefcase and left my keys by the door for Braelyn and Audrey to lock up the place when they leave. I quietly closed the door behind me. I stayed up all night tossing and turning thinking about Braelyn. I'm so stupid, I should've stopped it when I had the chance but the temptation was killing me at the same time. What is wrong with me? I'm a 41 year old man, a married man to be exact, who can't control his feelings towards a young woman who's temporary staying at his house for a few weeks with my long lost son. Now, I have to sit through the meeting and the show with this on my conscious.

I'm sitting here in my office looking at pictures of Nancy and the girls on my desk and a picture of Braelyn and Caiden smiling on my phone. She sent me that last night before we went to sleep. I heard a knock on my door, "come in." I called out. The door opened to reveal Higgins. "Hey." He smiled and closed the door behind him. He sat down in a chair in front of my desk and crossed his right leg over his left. "What are you doing here so early, Higs?" I asked. "Lorne called me, he told me to meet you in your office. He's on his way down here." He replied looking down at his phone. I let out a sigh, causing him to look at me. "What's wrong? Why are you here? You don't usually come into the office until 11."

I looked out the window. "I did something bad, and I don't regret it. I'm so confused. I need advice. I already know somebody's feelings are going to get hurt, because of my stupid ass decisions."

"What did you do-" Higgins asked but was interrupted by a knock on the door. "Come in." I shouted. Lorne walked in and closed the door behind him. He sat down in a seat next to Steve. "Morning Jimmy." He greeted. "Morning Lorne." I looked at him.

"Ok, so what's up Jimmy?" Lorne said clasping his hands together.

"I-I did something bad, real bad. I told Steve I don't regret nothing." I said taking my eyes off of him and stared at the wall behind him not daring to look at him when I divulge my secret.

"Well, are you going to tell us?"

"I-I kinda slept with Braelyn." I looked down and played with my fingers.

I heard a sigh, still not daring to look up. I'm too scared to look at the two men sitting in front of me who basically knew me since my SNL days in the eyes. I know they're disappointed. "Jimmy what do you mean, you kinda slept with her. It's either you did or didn't." Lorne spoke up.

"I slept with her." I muttered. I got up from my desk and walked over to my window and stared down at the trees blowing in the wind. Steve and Lorne both stayed silent. I waited 30 more seconds before saying something, "say something. Anything."

"Sit down James." Steve said. His voice is stern and fulled with disappointment. I have never heard Steve call me James before. Not now nor during my time on SNL. I did as I was told and sat down. "What do you mean you slept with her Jimmy?" Lorne asked as he rubbed the bridge of his nose.

"I slept with her. That's it. There's nothing else to say."

"No, I want to know why? Did you forget you have a wife and-" Lorne said angrily before I cut him off.